Tw/mentions of rape /self harm /assault /death
Carlos leaned against the headboard he let out a sigh as he looked at the clock this was Tk's first day out of the hospital since what happened tk hadn't been sleeping through the night if hew was lucky he could get two hours before the nightmares came creeping around the corn of his head again
Tk had just fallen back to sleep after yet another nightmare he wouldn't tell Carlos what his nightmares were about he just tole him that he was okay and to go back to sleep Burt how was Carlos's supposed to sleep when he was still fighting demons in his head
Tk was hurt because of him -
Carlos should've protected tk that was a his job yet he failed and tk died in his hands
The only reason he's here is because Tommy and Nancy saved him
Carlos got up out of bed carefully trying not to disturb tk
He lead on the kitchen counter running his finger through his curls he should have protected tk - thats his job he felt like he owed that to not only himself but Gwynn god he should have protected him -
Carlos felt hands wrap around his waist Carlos wiped his face turning around to see tk "hey.." Carlos said giving tk a small smile " Carlos.." tk said bringing his thumb to wipe a stray tear "what's going on ?" Tk saids "no lies ." Tk said
" I didn't protect you- you got hurt because I couldn't protect you -" Carlos said stating to cry again " you can't even sleep through the night tk and I just woke you up again .." Carlos said pulling away from Tk
"Carlos come here ." Tk said softly pulling Carlos back to him " I'm here because of you you did protect me ." Tk said stroking Carlos's face " were a team you should have told me you were feeling like this ." Tk said " its better than sneaking to the kitchen to have a panic attack -"
"I didn't want to be something you had to worry about you almost lost you life I can't even imagine what's going through your head ." Carlos said "I'm thinking how lucky I am to have a boyfriend who loves me like you do ." Tk said rubbing his hands over Carlos's chest " cmon let go back to bed you need cuddles ."
"I need them or you want to give them ?" Carlos asked "both ." Tk shrugged
Tk went to his dad's house knocking on the door "hey son ?" Owen said " you didn't tell me you were coming ." His dad said As tk stepped inside right before some woman walks past with her purse " ill see you later Owen ." The girl teased as she brushed past tk " really -." Tk said ads Owen closed the door " its a long story ." Owen saids leading Tk to the kitchen "what's up kid ." Owen said "why didn't you come visit me in the hospital..? Tk asked " does it mater your okay you always are I was busy -." Owen said "dad I almost died .." tk said "but you okay ." Owen said clapping tk on the shoulder " I was raped dad ." Tk said looking at Owen with tears in his eyes " I needed my dad and you couldn't even show up you couldn't even brother to send a text ." Tk said " its nothing personal son-" Owen sid " yeah that's what you told me when you left our family after Luna died you acted just like this you couldn't even bother to call your kid who was still alive ." Tk saids looking at his father in tears " I was grieving son " Owen said " so was I dad ! I watched my sister die right in front of me ..." Tk said " and then you just left what else was I supposed to think other than - that I caused it that I broke the family -." Tk stopped as he choked on his sobs " that I was the reason she was dead ." "dad you know I'm sorry that i was such a fuck-up, I'm sorry it wasn't me that day who got killed , I'm sorry I can't bring them back cause believe me I've tried .. I try every time i go to work trying to save everyone thinking that it will bring them back but it never does ." Tk said walking out the door
Tk came home seeing Carlos in the kitchen making dinner " hey baby ." Carlos said looking at tk who had just came thru the door tk walked over leaning against the counter "you okay anything you need to talk about ?" Tk asked looking up at Carlos "I'm okay baby ." Carlos smiled " okay I'm gonna go lay down .." tk said " dinners gonna be done soon." Carlos said " im not really hungry save me a plate ?" Tk said " yeah ." Carlos said with a small
Tk closed the bedroom doors behind him heading to his nightstand opening his drawer to see his kit which held his blades and some gauze packets tk heard Carlos rummaging around the kitchen tk looked back down at his kit before putting it back in his nightstand tk opened the door of their bedroom coming back to the kitchen he wrapped his arms around Carlos's waist Carlos turned around seeing Tk's face
"I'm sorry -." Tk said choking out na sob his head nestled in Carlos's neck " hey you have nothing to be sorry for I've got you ." Carlos said rubbing Tk's " I was gonna cut ." Tk cried "and you came to me instead I'm so proud of you ." Carlos said which made tk choke out another sob
They stayed like that for a while Carlos knew thats what tk needed he felt safe enough to come to Carlos instead of cutting himself so Carlos held him for as long as he needed kept the conversation light and open if tk wanted to talk about what happened He did make tk eat something small so he had something in his stomach
He bought tk to bed helping him get changed in something more comfortable tk zoned out as Carlos pulled the hoodie over his head "you okay ?" Carlos asked softly " he raped me -." Tk broke the silence "but you already knew that .." tk said looking a Carlos " I didn't want to push I want everything Tk be on your terms when your ready ." Carlos said "I love you ." Tk said softly "cmon I owe you long overdue cuddles.." Carlos said
YOU ARE READING
The Great War - A Tarlos Love story
Fanfiction"Life is unpredictable and control is just an illusion. And it makes us feel small and powerless." But when control becomes to much people get hurt It turned into something bigger Somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed Your finger on...
