I woke up to dd shaking me lightly. "i dont wanna go" i mumble so he drags me outta bed. "you have to go stop being silly" dd says passing me black dress, black jordans and a monclaire coat.
I go in the shower and do my hair and get dressed. I came out seeing dd Notti, dudeylo and ddot dressed. I smile lightly going to my bed and getting my phone of the charger.
"you good lil ricky" dudeylo says so i laugh lightly. "that name makes me sound like a boi dic" i say so he laughs a little before walking out turning off the light as we all follow behind.
When we got there i seen all of my dads family so me and dudeylo spoke to everyone. "im not doing a speech" i say so dudeylo nods his head and agrees saying hes not doing one neither because we would get too emotional.
After the funeral everyone went outside with yellow and white balloons since those were his fave colours.
"EVERYTHING FOR RICKY" everyone screamed as we let go of the balloons.
When we let go of the balloons everyone was looking up at the sky but my eyes didn't leave his coffin knowing his bod was laying in there. tears flood my eyes so Notti walked up to me and hugged me tightly with dd ddot and dudeylo waiting to hug me aswell.
I spot my cousin name Ray so he walked up to me and hugged me and dabbed up dudeylo. "i haven't seen you for ages" my cousin says so i smile lightly.
"how you been tho" my cousin says as we walk around slowly. I shrug my shoulders before i started speaking. "good, not good" i say as he nods. "i could say the same" he says so i smile lightly again. I start feeling dizzy and feel like im about to drop and dd realized so he held my waist.
"are you good ma?" dd says so i shrug. " i feel like im about to faint" i say so dd puts me on his back and walks me home.
When i got home we went upstairs and i cried on Notti and dd went to go get me a drink with ddot and dudeylo sitting on the sofa downstairs.
Notti rubbed my head as i cried in his arms. "you want some zaza" notti says so i nod and chuckle at the way he says zaza.
He smiles at me before rolling up and talking. "ddot gives me gay vibes" Notti blurted out as dd walked in so we all chuckle. "why" dd says laughing.
"i dont know he just looks abit like a girl" Notti says so i laugh a little as he passed me a freshly rolled blunt. "his voice sounds like his balls aint dropped" i mumble so everyone screams laughing with me. Notti cheer's me up so much even when im at my lowest.
Ddot and dudeylo comes upstairs seeing us laughing so they smile and sit on my bed.
"whats funny" ddot says. "your balls aint dropped" Notti says making me scream of laughter and choke on the weed. ddot started chuckling. "yes they have thats why all the bitches want my long dic" ddot says making me laugh even harder as dudeylo started laughing too.
I make a small mesurement on my fingers and show everyone saying thats how long it is so we all started screaming as ddot rolled his eyes. After me and dudeylo smoked a whole blunt we sat on my bed watching big mouth.
"why do you watch this shit" dd says so i side eye him. "because its amazing see look" i say pointing at the tv and it was the epesode where he was in a porn world.
"what the fuck" dd mumbles covering my eyes so i move his hand out my face and continue watching it. He mumbles something under his breath so i look at him and he started laughing really hard.
