THE UNREQUITED LOVE

35.

TAEHYUNG'S POV

"I want to cry"

She almost whispered, tears were on the brim of her eyes and her lips quivered, it broke my heart to look at her like this, at this moment I just wanted to take her pain away. A tear escaped from her eye and I knew she needed to let it all out, I held the back of her head and hid her face in my chest knowing how much she hates to cry in front of anyone. She wrapped her arms around my torso and cried silently, I put my chin on the top of her head while caressing her back to soothe her somehow. 

Soon the silent cries turned louder and louder and by the next minute she started screaming while crying, my heart ached looking at her like this but I was so helpless that I couldn't do anything more than hug her close to me. She clutched my t-shirt tightly and wailed,

"She hates me"

I knew she was talking about her mother, I didn't mean to eavesdrop but I heard their conversation the kids also did but none of us said anything as it was her family issue and it was her place to solve those problems but I still remember the way she walked on eggshell whenever Mason or Saya was nearby and today I saw it all by myself. 

If it wasn't her family she cared about I swear I would kill her mom right there to hurt her, but from now I'll make sure that no one would be able to hurt her anyhow. I tightened my grip around her as she started to shiver badly, I patted her head and whispered in her ear,

"Everything will be alright"

She shook her head in denial and pulled away from me instantly, I looked at her red-shot eyes, tears were running down her cheeks. Her back hit the counter she clutched the edges of it for her dear life and mumbled,

"Nothing is going to be alright"

I extended my arms towards her to hold her but she scrunched down and continuously mumbled,

"Everyone hates me"

I kneeled in front of her, and she frantically looked at me and spoke,

"You also hate me"

"I don't hate you Strawberry"

"You do"

She whispered I shook my head in denial as my eyes started to tear up, and I pulled her in my arms back. She tried her best to fiddle out of my embrace but I couldn't leave her like this, she started punching my chest weakly and mumbled while crying,

"You'll leave me again"

"I'm not going anywhere Yn"

She shook her head in rejection and continued to punch my chest weakly but I held her closer to me. Her actions started to become weak and weak as time passed eventually she rested her head in the crook of my neck, and I hugged her tighter telling her I was not leaving her anytime soon. She sobbed in the crook of my neck and mumbled,

"I always wanted a happy family"

She chuckled almost mocking herself and continued,

"But guess what neither I got one nor was able to create one"

"Shh~ Strawberry, stop thinking so much"

Her cries died slowly, but she continued to sob and sniff. She wrapped her fragile arms around my neck and closed her eyes, she snuggled into my embrace and spoke,

"I promise once I get pregnant, I'll set you free"

"You won't need to be by my side anymore then"

My heart ached as reminded me of the bitter truth, but a large part of me doesn't want to leave her like this, she's already too broken for this shit and now I love her I can't bring myself to break her heart again. I know I have Sunmi waiting for me but I have to figure everything out before I hurt anyone more than I already did.