Lose You To Love Me (Mafia Romance)

CHAPTER 58

CHAPTER 58 - WHAT I WOULD DO FOR HIM

I stared out the window, overlooking the busy streets of New York and recalled all the things Andreas and Penelope told me--basically about the truth of my life.

Let's start with my father, it pains me to call him that after learning about what he did to me.

It's hard to comprehend how someone could be so damn heartless, especially when it comes to their own blood. Selling off your own and only child, who had no control over their mother's death, is cruel and unforgivable.

How could he do something like that?

And my grandfather, who sacrificed a lot for me, did everything he could to raise me, and went above and beyond just so I could achieve my goals and dreams. Who, also, orchestrated a web of deception and manipulation, used someone to carry out his plans, all in the name of protecting me and ensuring my success.

I know he just wanted the best for me, but his actions have left me questioning whether the ends truly justify the means. It's difficult to reconcile the positive intentions with the negative aftermath, and I find myself torn between appreciation and apprehension.

I pulled my legs together and drew them to my chest. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I thought of the person who has taken on the toll of all this--the mess my family made.

Theo.

All this time, Theo willingly carried these heavy burdens on his shoulders. He has taken the responsibility of being my protector, knowing that the weight of my dreams rested upon him. He embraced the role of my husband, even though he didn't have to, just to shield me from any harm and pave the way for my success.

But what did I do in exchange for his selfless act?

I called him lots of nasty names--cold hearted, unaffectionate, manipulator, even a liar and a cheater, not knowing his true motives.

"What girlfriend?"

"Infidelity? I have never been with nor touched any woman since we married."

"I made sacrifices, too. And I won't rub it in your face because those are my choices. I would never hold you or anyone accountable for the choices that I make."

It all makes sense now. I thought as I recalled some of my conversations with Theo.

I opened my eyes and rested my head on my knees, feeling the weight of my actions weighing heavily on my conscience.

I regret the way I treated him, and I wish I had known better. But how could I? This was what they wanted me to think about--that Theo betrayed me, and they succeeded there.

Yes, there were numerous times I wanted to leave him. My head kept on insisting I deserve better, I should leave, but it was always my heart that said give him another chance. Despite his facade, my heart sees the real him: the genuineness behind those protectiveness.

I was so happy I listened to my heart, and I will continue to do so, especially now that the only thing that was holding me back no longer exists as Theo never cheated on me.

I will keep on holding on to my trust in him and our relationship. I will strive to make it stronger and deeper. I will strive to be the best partner I can be for him. I will make up for all the time we wasted by showing him through my actions and words that I am fully committed to him, and dedicated to building a family with him.

Yes, and most importantly, I have to make sure he knows all this. I have to tell him that he is all I want, my dream.

The thought made me excited and I couldn't help the smile spread across my face. But it quickly faded when I remembered Andreas' words.