You get too close (Dean)

Chapter 47

One week later

// Dean //

I huff, Throwing another punch at the punching bad in front of me. I should probably leave the gym, I've been in here for at least three hours now, But this is the only thing that distracts or, In other words, Comforts me right now.

I am the biggest jackass known to exist. I've ruined my life. I'm not being dramatic. I really have.

Roman and Seth are still my brothers, They always will be, But I've put a major strain on our relationship. Every time I try to talk to them they either walk off or look at me like I'm absolute scum. They don't wanna be around me anymore and that sucks.

I'm missing Sadie like crazy. I feel like I'm going through withdrawals or something. Every time I hear her name my skin starts to itch and my eyes get all watery, Like I'm some sort of child. I would give my left lung just to see her face.

Not that my left lung is of any use to her. It's probably black and shriveled up from all the smoking I've been doing. I've been buying a pack every day. I'm constantly holding a cigarette, And if I'm not it's because I'm preoccupied with a beer.

The superstars and divas look at me like I'm a monster when I walk down the hallways and it bugs the hell out of me. Who are they to judge me? They've made mistakes too. Several of them. And they shouldn't be in my fucking business.

And then, The worst of it all, The two blonde bimbos who refuse to leave me alone.

Renee and Summer won't leave me alone to save their souls. I made it clear to Renee that what happened was a huge mistake. I'd told her that it was my fault and that I didn't blame her. And I told her that there is no us any longer. I told her I wanted to make things right with Sadie so I need to distance myself from her. This only caused her to follow me around like a lost puppy. I'm pretty sure she told the divas that we're dating again, Which is a damn lie.

I don't know who in the hell told Summer that I was interested in her at all, But clearly she listened to them. Every corner I turn, She's right there waiting for me. I'm about to lose my mind. It's like she's a stalker or something.

I deserve to be unhappy, I really do. What I did was horrible. But god damn I'd rather lose my job than continue to be followed around by the two most annoying women in all of existence.

I sigh, Taking my ear buds out before turning to grab my water bottle. I'll just go back to my hotel room and take a long shower and try to relax. Then I'll see how the rest of the day goes.

******

After taking a long shower and an even longer nap, I decided to leave my hotel room and roam the halls. I'm in desperate need of a walk but it's storming outside.

I throw on my jacket and pick up my cell phone before walking out of my hotel room quickly.

I can't wait to leave this stupid hotel. It's big and fancy and pretty enjoyable but it feels like we've been stuck in here for far too long. I'd just like to get in a car and drive for a while. Long drives both irritate and comfort me. They're nice when you're just riding in the backseat, Under your headphones.

I wonder how Sadie's enjoying her rides now that she's riding with Paige. I wonder if she's enjoying it a lot more than I am or if she finds it boring. I wonder if she ever thinks about me.

Probably not. She's probably already moved on. I was just a waste of time for her anyways. Not that I'd be mad if she did already move on. She deserves someone much better than me.

I wonder if-

"BITCH!" I hear someone scream.

I look towards the loud noise and raise my brows as I notice that Renee and Summer are standing down the hall.