Covington Prep

Do I want him to?

Cal's POV

I watched as Josh fought Carson and Anders and Jack got involved. It wasn't much of a fight, honestly.

Carson is a pretty big wienie. Trust me, I know. When we went to the principal's office, I used my best

angel voice I saved for adults, and pursuasion skills to get the boys out of trouble. I got them out of

suspension (I was pretty proud) but they still had two detentions. When I walked out, I tried to keep all

emotion out of my face so that they had no idea what was going to happen. It was pretty funny. I could

tell out of the corner of my eye that they all looked pretty scared. 

I was walking towards Margaret's car when Jack caught up to me. We talked for a minute and he

hugged me. He was warm and strong. Lately, my feelings have been really confusing. I thought I only

liked Josh because he was my old crush but recently, I have been falling for Jack also. He's my best

guy friend, I can't like him; it would ruin our friendship. But when he hugged me, warmth spread all the

way down to my toes. When we broke apart, he stared at me so intensely, I thought he was going to

make a move. Did I want him to?... I don't know. When he looked away, disappointment flowed through

me but I tried not to let it show. Why did I want him to make a move? I thought I didn't like him! Ugh, why

are feelings so confusing?! I swallowed, smiled, and got into Marge's car. We drove away and I looked

out the window the entire time. Margaret knew I was thinking so she kept quiet. When we got to my

house, I said goodbye and walked inside. I climbed into bed and checked my messages. One from

Josh saying thanks and we needed to talk. One from Anders saying he would thank me in person, and

a couple from a group message. I turned off my phone and stared in the dark. I turned on my music and

Ariana Grande's song, Almost is Never Enough came on. 

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie

And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'd be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve

Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough (is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (so close)
If I would have known that you wanted me the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

I rolled my eyes at the clichéness of it all (like, of course, THAT song would play) and shut it off. But as I was falling asleep, I thought about the lyrics and fell asleep to it repeating in my head.