Gravity

Chapter Eleven

Jhoana

I woke up because of a splitting headache. I feel like my head is being chopped into half. The pain is unbearable I already started to cry. Ugh! This is what happens when you spent the night cramming for a presentation. Ikaw naman kasi, Jho, kung kelan due tsaka mo lang ginawa! I am scheduled to present an update of how we are doing with the accounting books of Bea's company. It's been a month since the kick-off and so far, their business of book printing is doing great. They were able to get some of the country's biggest publishers, the type who publish million copies of books, so they are earning really well. Marci and I together with our team, on the other hand, were able to complete accounting for their company's transactions for the whole month and that is what today's presentation is about. After this, Marci and I will be lifted from this account because we're already done. Kung noon, ang plano ko after namin matapos sa account nila Bea ay ang tuluyang mag-move on, ngayon iba na. Ever since Bea said that I should wait for her until she's ready, my plan now is to make up for the lost times, bumawi, make her feel that I love her, that I'm not going to leave her anymore. I just have to wait for this to be over para na rin hindi maging issue since they're our clients, para walang conflict of interests. Soon, this would be over and I'm excited. But my head is not cooperating today because the pain continued. I struggled to stand up to get to the medicine cabinet and get the pain reliever. When I got my hands on the medicine, I hurriedly chunked down two pills and waited for them to take effect. After five minutes, the pain subsided. I normally keep large stocks of pain reliever medicines dahil madalas akong mina-migraine. Marci would always tell me to have myself checked dahil during the past six months ay napapadalas ang pagsakit ng ulo ko and I would always answer him na masyado lang syang praning dahil alam kong simpleng migraine lang to. Pain reliever lang ang katapat. Effect na rin siguro ito ng laging pagpupuyat dahil sa work at dahil na rin sa kakaisip kay Bea.

I immediately took a bath para na rin mag-prepare sa pagpasok. I can't wait for this day to be over. I miss Bea so much. During the past month ay pareho kaming busy although araw araw din naman kaming nagkikita. If you would ask me how my current relationship with Bea is, I can say that it's better than before. It's not that great, dahil minsan ay aloof parin sya sa akin at medyo guarded parin, but it's not that bad either dahil nararamdaman kong unti unti nang nawawala ang galit nya sa akin. She's slowly warming up towards me now. Sometimes, I would invite her to a lunch or dinner at pumapayag naman sya. Sometimes naman, I would cook for her. Maddie, too, is still helping me to win her back. Naging super close na nga rin kami dahil dito. Sa kanya ako palagi nagku-kwento sa kung ano na ba  ang status ng operation namin.

I am all smiles when I arrived at the office. Marci is already waiting for me sa cubicle ko.

"Ganda ng mood mo today, ah! Excited?", Marci teased as I opened my laptop.

"Of course. After today, I can now focus on getting Bea back, right?" I answered him smiling.

"Alam mo, she would be stupid to not have you back." I looked at him and saw that his expression is serious but I just smiled.

"But still, mas tanga parin ako for leaving her noon."

"Here you go again. Alam mo, sana kapag napatawad ka na ng tuluyan ni Bea, mapatawad mo rin yang sarili mo. Hindi pwedeng habang buhay mong sisisihin ang sarili mo dahil lang sa mga past decisions mo." Napaisip ako sa sinabi nya. I know I've been busy asking for forgiveness from Bea na nakalimutan ko na na yung mismong sarili ko ay hindi ko pa napapatawad. Well, I guess when I get Bea back, dun ko lang mapapatawad ang sarili ko.