Escape

Chapter 26

Songs for this chapter:

Bend or Break- Allstar Weekend (alternative version)

Leave My Heart Out of This- Fifth Harmony

Human- Gabrielle Aplin

*CALUM'S P.O.V*

How the hell am I going to fix this. I fucked up, big time, and I'm not sure I can make it better. If Heidi finds out, it will kill her. I'm probably the stupidest person alive.

It's not like I meant for it to happen, it just sort of.. did. But the look on Luke's face..

I shook my head in disgust, at myself and what I had done, and got up to take a shower. I looked over at Luke's bed only to find it empty. He's probably already told Bentley, which means Heidi could possibly already know.

My heart beat quickened at the thought, and I could feel myself getting nauseous. I rubbed my hand over my face and went into the bathroom, closing the door. I took one look in the mirror and almost threw up.

Love bites covered my chest, varying in size. There was one on the base of my neck that looked disgusting, purple evident in the bruise. There was no way that I'm proud of what I did with that girl, and if there was any way I could take it back I would.

In the middle of my self loathing, I heard a knock on the door.

"Calum?" a girl's voice said.

Shit. Shit. Shit. I thought she had left. I had made it clear that I wasn't interested in her staying any longer, yet here she is.

I slowly opened the door, revealing a slim girl with long blonde hair and piercing blue eyes. Her lips turned up into a shy smile, and she batted her eyelashes at me. She really was a beautiful girl, yet I couldn't take my eyes away from her neck. Evidence of my mouth was left all along it. My stomach churned slowly, and I gulped.

"Can I join you?" she stepped closer to me, putting her hands to my chest. I took her wrists in one of my hands and pushed her away.

"You really have to leave."

"But I thought we had fun last night."

"Look," I began. Might as well be honest with her. "You're a gorgeous girl. You really are. But I can't even begin to remember your name." I noticed her shoulders fall at my words, but I continued. "Last night was a mistake. I'm sorry, I was upset and drunk and I didn't make the right decisions."

"You can just tell me if there's someone else."

"What?"

"Everything you just said is the cliché of not wanting to see me again."

"I don't even know why you would think that. I have no romantic feelings for a girl whose name I don't know." It was rude, but I don't care. "Last night was the biggest mistake of my life, and I am going to go through hell to make up for what I did."

"So there is someone else." she confirmed.

I sighed and leaned against the counter. "Yeah. There always will be, but when she finds out about this, she will never have anything to do with me ever again." I felt myself tearing up, but I fought to keep myself together.

"Then don't tell her."

"I'm going to tell her."

"Why? So you can hurt her?" she leaned against the doorframe, crossing her arms.

"What's your name?"

"Zoe."

"Zoe, I'm not going to go around and act like everything is okay, when I know for a fact that it's not. I know that when I look in the fucking mirror and see these marks on me. I know that when I look at you and see the marks on you." I took a breath and kept going. "This girl is the most amazing thing to happen to me, but I screwed it up the minute I screwed you. I'm not going to lie to her, so yes. I am going to tell her, and yes Zoe, it will hurt her. But I'm going to try to fix it."