It's always been you!

Girls night

Great let's go. Leah says while she grabs my hand and pull me to the stairs... as we reach  my room  Leah had a big smile on her face.

What's up? I ask

Nothing. Just go in. She says

Ok. I say as I enter my bedroom. As soon as I enter I see my keyboard and my electric guitar that Paul got me the Christmas before I left for LA but as my eyes wonder I see a small box wrapped in red wrapping paper sitting in my bed.

What's this? I ask

It's a little gift I got you l. Think of it as a welcome back present. Leah says while smiling.

Thank you Leah.

Don't thank me until you open it.

Ok. I say opening the presents.

Oh Leah it's wonderful. I say as I admire the the beautiful scrapbook filled with pictures of my life in Fork before I left.  As I went through it I notice all the pictures of Paul and I. As I continue looking through the scrapbook I come across a photo of Paul and I at the beach walking hand in hand during a sunset. This has always been my favourite photo of us. It showed how close we are, well were.

What's wrong? Leah ask

Nothing.

It's not nothing

It... it just feels so weird that one minute Paul's in my life and the next he's... he's gone. I say

Hey, let's not thinks about it right now.

How can I not think about Leah? For the past three years it's all I been thinking about. He's all I've been thinking about. I say while looking down at my bedroom floor. He's not just my best friend.

I know he's your imprint

No he's not. He is my everything. He's my best friend, my world, he is the only reason why I'm still alive. I say

What do you mean? Leah asks

At one point in my life I wanted to die so, I tried. He stopped me. It was life he was my life line. He kept me alive when I didn't feel like was good enough for anyone, when I felt like no one loved me, when I felt like I had no one. I explain

Sarah.... why didn't you talk to us about? Leah asks

I tried but slowly you all stopped talking to me even Sam and Paul. That's what lead me to it. I explain to Leah. How can I just lose the one person that's keeping me alive so fast? I whisper to myself

Sarah...

You know what let's not talk about it anymore, it was in the past.

Sarah...

How bout we do something fun? I Ask changing the subject

Like what?

I don't know. How bout we watch a movie?

I know which one? I ask

How bout beauty and the beast? Leah suggests

No. It reminds me to much if Paul. Sorry.

It's ok. How bout we make some music?

Sure. That sounds fun. I say with a smile...