✅Touring with Why Dont We ✅

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We get to the venue and I set up the chairs. This time I actually hope that they come out so I can talk to Jonah about everything.

I go really slow and sure enough they come outside to practice. They start to practice and I can sense something off.

I think they can too because they stop singing and start talking. I finish the chairs by the time they are done talking and practicing.

Just what I was hoping for. I want to talk to Jonah but I don't know how. Daniel comes up to me to talk.

"So have you talked to Jonah yet" he asks
"No, I don't really know how to" I say
"He wants to talk to you though" he says
"But he isn't anywhere to talk"
"He looks ready over there. Speaking of which he told me to tell you to go over there so you guys can talk. He wants to apologize" he points over to the wall

I walk over to Jonah to talk.

"Daniel said you needed to talk" I say

"Yes, I needed to say that im still upset about everything I did. I don't know why I did it and I'm really sorry" he says genuinely

"I understand how you feel I mean you say sorry alot. Anyways it's done it happened and neither of us can change what happened" I respond

"well I can't just stop being sorry I ruined everything. I wish it never happened. I wish we never went to that hotel, I wish I never believed that girl changed, I wish the boys never left the room, I wish I made her leave, I wish I never kissed her back, I wish I never had us stay in the parking lot to see if I could trust you, I wish everything that happened that day didnt. I regret everything." He says sounding upset

I see the other boys looking over and I know they can hear

"there's nothing to regret. Like people say everything happens for a reason. Maybe we weren't meant for each other." I say

"Maybe we weren't. But why aren't you upset about this usually people are" He says

"I really don't know. I should be. I should because I also wish what happened never happened because I thought that I found someone who was finally nice" I say

"please listen I'm really sorry I thought you understood. Didn't you just say that" he says confused

This time I know for sure the boys can hear. I decide to tell him how i truly feel

"okay I have to be honest with you. When someone asks me if I'm okay with this I say Im fine but I'm really not. I really wish I was fine and I understand. But I really can't. I can't understand how you feel. I can't be fine with any of this. I want to be fine. But it's hard to be fine when it was only three days. It's hard to be okay when you trust someone and they ruin it. It's hard to tell people your fine when in reality you aren't. I get that your sorry but sorry isn't helping. Sorry is actually just making it worse. When you say sorry I get more and more sad because I remember how I felt before and after that day. I really wish I didn't have to say this." I say crying