Chapter 48 - intro to anxiety

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The song is Intro to Anxiety by Hoodie Allen. Play it while listening to the song plz.

Sophie P.O.V

We sat inside one of the spare guest room a radio in the corner playing. Two mattresses where on the floor since there where only two beds in the room, but we'd forced Chris to drag in two from the room next door.

"Why can't I stay for the sleepover?" Chris whined, standing in the doorway where Amaya was trying to push him out.

"Girls only." April said simply from where Lucy sat next to her painting her nails.

Chris looked down at Amaya who was still trying to move him out of the room. He didn't budge. "Babe? Come on, please?"

She paused and looked up at him. "I'm sure you can handle one night without me, you wuss."

"But, babe." He smirked. "Last night you where in my room. And now my bed sheets smell like you-"

With that Amaya pushed him out the room with whatever strength she had left and slammed the door shut. She turned around and smiled sheepishly at us. She was definitely blushing. "Ha, boyfriends. Gotta love them." She said awkwardly.

"You kinda do, their you boyfriend." Lucy said, laughing.

"Yeah," Amaya said before coming to sit on the mattress next to us.

The radio changed its music.

"Happy camper, happy camper, happy camper, oh."

"Ladies, this was my song in like seventh grade." Amaya announced before standing up to dance. "Yo, life can be super happy, life can be super sad
I'm trying super hard to separate the good and the bad
I'll go back to my future just to get to my past
But knowing me, my DeLorean would probably crash
Sometimes I get in a taxi when I ain't got no cash
Worry if my credit card don't work, then I might have to dash
Have the cab driver chase me 20 blocks down 7th Ave
And if he catching up to me, I know he'll wanna kick my ass
Damn, that's one hell of an imagination
Even worse than talking to these girls, I get infatuated
Send a text and it go green, wonder what that fucking mean
Like did it send, has it been seen?
Why ain't she writing back to me?
Probably chatting with some other guys and I feel jealousy
Two days later, she write back, like S-R-Y, I fell asleep
I think I'll be alone forever, maybe I'll live with my parents
That way I could eat the food and never feel embarrassed cause."

I got up and started singing. "Sometimes I let my ego get the best of me
Sometimes I wonder why my stress is stressing me
Sometimes I lay awake and I can't go to sleep
This is my introduction to anxiety
Sometimes I need someone to take control of me
Sometimes I let my demons get ahold me
Sometimes I think that shit ain't what it used to be
This is my introduction to anxiety."

Amaya again. "Okay class, settle down, this is your teacher talking
I got the girls in the OC flipping like Mischa Barton
The only time I socialize is at a pizza party
Usually I see a party, overthink and keep on walking
Cause what if the friends I came with leave me with a bunch of strangers?
Standing all alone, I won't have no one to play drinking games with
And now I'm semi-famous, all they want's a selfie with me
Or several shots of whiskey to test my masculinity
And see how we compare or have a story for their friends
But I still feel like just some fucking guy so none of it makes sense
I don't need attention, I need an intervention
From the internet like I got sent home from a school suspension
Staring at my ceiling and I'm trying to make sense of it
Asking no one in particular, "Is this the best it gets?"
Swear to God, I hope it's not
Also know I shouldn't swear
Used to give a thousand fucks but nowadays I just don't care cause."

Me again. " Sometimes I let my ego get the best of me
Sometimes I wonder why my stress is stressing me
Sometimes I lay awake and I can't go to sleep
This is my introduction to anxiety
Sometimes I need someone to take control of me
Sometimes I let my demons get ahold me
Sometimes I think that shit ain't what it used to be
This is my introduction to anxiety."

Amaya made a motion as if she's was dropping a microphone and bowed. "Ah, fuck I'm dead inside."

Lucy and April sat awkwardly to the side and nodded.

"Okay, now that that's over let's stay up all night talking about girly stuff." I said taking a slice of pizza from the box. "We can do this."

Wrong.

By 10:30 we had lost April and Lucy and me and Amaya where kinda having a war of who was gonna fall asleep first. I yawned my eyes half closed. "Sleep is for the weak." I whispered.

"If it is then," Amaya said before falling back in her bed. "I am so very weak." She whispered before letting out a snore.

"Ha, loser!" I said before falling back in my own bed and letting sleep getting to me.

-

So basically, our sleepover totally failed but whatever, we deserved that sleep. When I woke up though, Amaya and April where both asleep. Lucy was missing.

I groaned and got up out of bed. I'm just gonna say it, but I need to pee.

After I had done my...business I had walked back into the room where Lucy now sat on the phone to. As soon as she saw me she hanged up and smiled at me. "Good morning."

I smiled back and fell backwards onto my bed. "Who where you onto the phone with."

She shook her head. "Unimportant."

I sighed and rolled sideways onto my bed. "I'm so tired." I whined.

"Yeah, its seven in the morning." Lucy explained.

"Fuck that!" I said before pulling the bed covers back over me. "I'm going to bed."

After a couple of minutes I heard Lucy stand up and walk out of the room. I snuggled back in my bed, still wandering who Lucy was talking to in the phone. I was halfway asleep when I heard a smashing sound and then a thud. I sat up and bed and Amaya and April seem to bolt up at the same time as me.

The window only a bit away from Amaya was broken and a rock sat on the floor in a pile of glass. "What the hell?" Amaya said and rubbed at her eyes.

"Theres a note on it." April said, her voice cracking a little. Amaya reached over and picked up the rock and took the note that had been stuck to it.

Amaya read over the note before looking up at me. "We need to go get Kyle now."


This is a cliffhanger. Again like all other chapters, but.

Watcha gonna do?

Also, guy I just wanna say that Anxiety is something that effects a lot of people. Including me. So yeah. Idk.

Luv u all and thanks for those who have been with me since the start.

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