Forbidden

Chapter 12

-NINFA'S P.O.V-

    She's so cold. As if she has no heart. Her eyes have no light but also no darkness. They're dull...
     It's all my fault. I'm going crazy. I told her I was sorry but... she's not... the woman I knew..
    I land at her balcony after she does. She sighs and turns around.
"Go home, angel."
    I'm really tired of hearing that. Nothing feels right anymore. Nothing. Except... her..
"Hey, Ninfa."
"Hey, Joel." I smile to him.
"Whatever." Valerie shrugs to me and goes to her room.
    Joel sighs. He closes his computer and leans back on the chair. His eyes meet mine.
"She's shut you out too."
     I nod.
"This Valerie is old. And she won't be out of this for a while. She was forced to use her powers and it drained all of who she was."
    I feel so guilty. "I should have stopped them."
"It wasn't you. She chose this. She's running from something."
"From me."
    He laughs at me and shakes his head. "Not just you. Trust me. Not just you."
"Then what?"
"Who she's meant to be. She has a destiny and she doesn't want to fulfill it. Neither would I. I don't want the crown more than any other creature or demon."
    I sigh. "I'm terrible. And ..and.... I.."
"Care."
    I nod. And I do... A lot more.. than I should.
"I think she's running from her feelings. She doesn't know what love is."
"That's not true. She doesn't 'love' me."
"I wouldn't be so sure."
    I shake my head. "She doesn't care for me."
    He smiles to me. His silence is deafening before he yawns. He gets up and goes to what I assume to be his room.
    I blink into her room. She sleeps, I can tell by her light breathing. I lean over and lightly kiss her forehead.
    As I pull back, her eyes open.
"What're you doing?"
    My heart races. "I.. don't know.." because I honestly have no idea..
    She closes her eyes again. "Go home, angel."
"I'm tired of hearing that."
"Maybe you wouldn't hear it if you weren't up my ass all the time." She mumbles into her pillow. I climb under the covers and lay next to her.
"Why are you still here?" She says in a sleepy voice.
"I don't know."
"Mm." She barely speaks as she falls asleep.
    I watch her sleep. It sounds creepy.. But I.. when she sleeps.. she's.. not...... She's the woman I met again.
    I feel myself grow tired. I begin to fall asleep to just her soft breathing. It startled me when her hand rests in my stomach, and it doesn't hurt, though she's holding her pillow... I fall asleep.

    I wake up alone. The bed still warm but cold without her. I feel sad..
    What am I doing? What am I doing? I get up and grab my things and blink home.
    The Elder catches my eyes and he sighs.
"What?"
"You said no more sins."
"I know."
"Yet you've dug yourself in a hole."
"Yeah, sure. We can go with that."
    He nods to me. I bow and go to my chambers. I summon food but barely eat it, like my usual over the pass... since I met her..
    Misty headbutts me and I hug her. She purrs loudly. I find myself to be crying in her fur.
    What have I gotten myself into? Saved by a demon. Save demon. Saved by demon. Save demon. Saved by demon. Yet each time I... f...a..l..l....
    I hold Misty tighter. "I've fallen for the demon." I cry into her fur.
    It's almost as if Misty hugs me. It feels nice. Feels warm..
    Though sitting at my edge of my bed... I fall asleep holding Misty. What would I do without my big kitty?

    His eyes continue to stare at me. He's just... staring.
"Say something."
"I got the spell perfected."
"Something besides that. I need help."
"I can't help you with that."
"Come on. You have to know what to do."
"Just because I am old, doesn't mean I have the wisdom to help."
"You're nearly 3000 years. You're saying you haven't once.."
   I.. can't bring the word.. to surface.
"I have, Ninfa. But I can't help you. This is something you have to figure out in your own."
    I hold my head in my hands and groan loudly.
"I was against the sins. I was against it all. But I see you now. And there is no one in the way. I say go for it."
    I look up. "You're kidding me?"
"No."
    My heart races. "But she can't love. She won't."
    He laughs. "I've seen what she's in. It's a trance. When one over uses their power, it drains their personality. They become hallow. They can be awoken. And I'm sure you can be the key."
"I've never done this. Angels don't have feelings."
"You're not just an angel. You're special. Your father had love for his creations. He had love. Meaning you do too."
    I sigh. "It won't work."
"Try."
"What made you do a 180?"
"You."
"What does that even mean?"
"Because. You went from knowing a life of only helping and being happy from that. But you never once felt real love. Yet here you are. Now I see. And it's rare. So, though it's forbidden, go for it. No one is stopping you."
    My stomach only grows more united with nerves.
"So, I'm dreaming right now. It's a really sick dream."
"Sick." He throws the dragon blade at me. It flies through my torso as if I was a ghost.
    My heart races quickly to it. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
"Nothing." He smiles to me.
   I sigh and pick up the blade. I holster my gun. "I suppose I should get the night over with.
    He presses his fingertips to my temple and he says a chant. I feel him reach in my mind. As he pulls back he smiles.
"If you're in danger. If you need help. Just think and I'll be there."
    Would you help me with this?
"No."
    He smirks to me as be snaps his fingers and the signal stops. "Anyway. Bye." He pushes me down and I fall out of heaven.
    And angel. On a mission. To tell a demon. That.. she's.. in.. love...
    Nothing to it. Just to find her.
   I open my wings as I'm close to the ground. Cloaking myself I fly high. Prayers lead me to a fight quickly.
    No sign of her but I take care of the issue at hand. It wasn't so bad. Though annoying. I wish monsters didn't exist.
    I have to take that back in a way. Technically.. She is one. Technically. But she's not.
    I feel the connection reopen as I fly higher from the scene.
"Should be a dungeon or den a few
blocks over."
    Raiding a den by myself... I don't know of I can do that.. I fly over and sneak in anyway.
    I listen.
"Any sign of the possible queen?"
"No."
"Why are we wasting out time with her? Lucifer will come back."
"He's not coming back, idiot."
"Why do we need a leader?"
"Look at us. We're going to all die. She will kill each and every one of us. It doesn't matter how much we breed."
"She kills us but doesn't take her responsibility."
"The monsters have grown annoying. They riot the street because they finally can. They want the world to know they're here."
"Leader to tame. Freedom is nice but leader to tame the others."
    A loud huff.
"I'm hungry."
"Go get the children."
    My blood runs cold in an instant. It's me against at least 20 but they will not touch a child for food. That's sick. Makes me wonder.. if.. she.. eats..
   I shake the thought. I keep myself cloaked but take off 2 heads. They look around the room in confusion.
   It's like I'm a hungry and they're the prey. All scared to move.
    I take off another 2 on the other side of the room.
"Who is playing this sick game? Jeremiah?"
"Nn" I cut his head off before he could finish.
   They all are starting to freak out. I almost want to laugh. Almost. But don't.
   I slice into the back knees of a few of then and they fall to their knees. I take their heads off one by one. It's like a chopping line. I'm honestly having fun with this.
   It feels like the world stops around me and in a flash her sword is to mine with a clash as time resumes. My heart races quickly. Her bodies have turned to ash with power of Sekia. Mine.. well.. I could leave a trail.
"Kids are sent off. Wonderful show. Sorry it had to end." She fakes acting like she cares.
    She takes form into a beautiful eagle and sets off. I quickly follow. She lands at her home and I land to.
   She looks to me. "I swear, I am so close to putting up a damn angel ward."
    I can't help but frown. That is one thing I don't want. ...I don't ..want... that.. I want.. her.
   She walks off to her room. Joel waves to me. I wave back but follow her.
"Valerie."
"Angel."
"Valerie."
"What do you want?"
    She changes, I look down to give some privacy. As she climbs in bed, I sit by her as she lays.
"Go home, angel."
   She grabs her pillow and closes her eyes. My stomach... explodes with butterflies. My heart beats hard against my chest...
   I lean down... am.. I really doing this?... my heart is in spasms.
   I lean in and lightly kiss her lips.