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Chapter 15

-VALERIE'S P.O.V-

   The night. The night. It was terrible.
    There were so many things wrong with it. This.. gruesome.. sex.. thingy... and then the mothers. And then.. I had to make them stop crying, so I had to do it all quickly.
     She shouldn't have had to see all that. And honestly, I didn't want to see it. Nothing was right about killing the babies, even if they were demons. And there were so many. So, so many..
     Now that things are slowed down. I'm in ..her arms..... I feel better.
     And I'm trapped. In her eyes. Her beautiful teal eyes. Something about them can take my breath away.
    She leans in and takes my lips again. I sit up slightly and kiss her back. Something.. something in my stomach sets on fire.
     The feeling. Or. The kiss. Or. The vodka. Something.. something is setting my body on fire, making me heated and I'm enjoying the feeling.
    I pull from the kiss when I realise I've straddled her hips. Her eyes fill with confusion.. my heart stutters to it.
"Are you okay?" Her eyes fill with worry. I've never seen worry. Not like this. Not like with her..
"Y..Yeah."
    She leans up and kisses me again. The feeling returns and only seems to get worse. It's her... she's doing this to me..
   I find my hands clutching the sheets under while also keeping my balance. Her lips.. Her lips feel.. ..magical.
   I don't know what's happening to me. My heart keeps beating faster. She's taking my breath away. She's.. driving me insane..
    I have to part for air. I don't want to stop. I..
    I'm in over my head. Way over. I don't know what's happening to me.
    I lightly kiss her cheek. Her eyes shine beautifully. It's a mesmerizing sight.
    After a moment I lay my head back down on her chest. Her heart sounds as fast as mine is. Maybe.. She feels this too?
    It doesn't take long before her heart sounds slow. A sound that could send me to sleep... but I need help. I need Joel.
    As her breaths are light, her heart is slow, I know she sleeps. I carefully climb off of her and out of bed. My head is spinning but it's not from the drink, that feeling went away around when I cried.
    Fuck. I cried. I don't.. cry..
    I silently use her favorite perk and teleport myself into the living room.
"You need a bell."
"So does she sometimes." I sigh. "I need help."
"Mentally, that's for sure."
"Listen, jackass. I'm serious."
     His eyes widen. "What's going on?"
"Okay. Only 2 people. Now 3." I hold my hand out before he can comment. "She lifted her shirt after I stabbed her. My stomach.. like set on fire or something. And then she just kissed me and then I did her. And it was like that but got worse. I thought I was crazy. Cause I had been drinking. And then. She kisses me again. And it like got worse."
   He smiles and it grows in a creepy way.
"Joel."
"You've grown a sexual appetite."
"Why do you say shit I don't understand?"
"Valerie. Your. Body. Wants. More."
    I feel myself blush... and he notices. "See?"
"Fuck off."
"Is that what's all wrong?"
"N..No." I fear to ask. Fear to know. But must..
"What is.. love?"
    He sits me down on the couch and flops down. He lays his head in my lap. "My little Valerie is growing up."
"Answer question." I roll my eyes.
    He smiles. "Love is a powerful thing. You get excited to see the person. You don't want them to leave when they're with you. You're heart races marathons even if you're completely still. You lose time when you're with them. Lose yourself in their eyes. Feel home in their arms. You feel happy. They make you happy with a single look."
   My heart races to his description. I'm... I'm.. fucked.
"You're in love, Valerie."
"I'm not."
"So you love her."
"Just because I'm in love doesn't mean I love her."
    It takes me a moment to realise what I said. I push him off the couch.
"You just admitted it."
   I stand and put my foot on his neck.
"It's forbidden."
"Did she tell you?" He tries to choke out.
    My heart won't stop. I feel like ripping the fucker out so it can finally run away.
    I take a deep breath and release him. "Yes."
   He gets up and sits back down, pulling me down on the couch too. He's like a big brother. Annoying but also there for me.
"Valerie, this is great."
"Not really."
"What are you even saying?"
"She's an angel."
"That doesn't matter. Valerie. If she loves you. If you love her. If it's true love. True love conquers all."
"She is in love. She doesn't love me."
"No. She's on the biggest step and so are you. You'll realise as the feeling grows stronger that you love her."
"What if I don't want to love her."
"Then you'd be a liar."
     I sigh. "I'm going to bed. You should too. Need your mind fresh."
"Mmmmm. Go nini with your angel."
   I punch him in the gut as I get up. "She's not mine."
"Beg to differ."
    I roll my eyes. I quietly walk back into my room. I smile to the sight.
    If this is love. It scares me. And.. uh.. that sexual thingy.
    I climb back into bed and carefully pull her close to me. Her arms manage to wrap partially around me. Her face borrows between my neck and the pillow.
    I sigh lightly. "I'm in love with you too." I softly whisper.
    I fall asleep. I fall asleep to this. This... angel... in my arms..

    A kiss to the cheek wakes me. Well scares. I jumped.
"Hey. It's okay."
    My heart seems to be going a million miles a second.
"Val. Breath."
    I'm not breathing? I feel like I'm panic attack over... hyperventilating?
   I take a deep breath.
"I'm sorry."
    I look to her. She.. Her eyes.. so soft.. and.. hurt.
    I cup her cheek and she leans in to it. "Don't be sorry."
"I actually didn't mean to wake you. I was about to go."
"Oh." I smile lightly and move my hand from her cheek.
"I have to shower and I need clothes."
"Yeah. I probably should too."
    She blushes. It's so adorable. It's.. It makes my heart race and I smile to it.
"Can I bring my friend over?"
"Yeah. Sure."
    She lightly kisses my lips and vanishes before I can kiss back. If she does that.. I don't like that.
   I get up and take a quick shower. I decided to take my clothes in the bathroom with me this time.. That was a little awkward..
   I get dressed. My heart begins to race and I feel her presence. I open the door to her. But she's got her hand to the side holding something that's cloaked.
"So." She smiles.
   I walk out of the bathroom. "So."
   As the cloak drops from what she's hiding. I screamed... I'm instantly backing away.
"Pussy."
"I am not."
"What?"
"She called me a pussy."
"You can talk to her?" She pauses. "This is Misty."
"I don't like her." The tiger headbutts Ninfa to try and get her attention.
"She just said she didn't like me."
    Ninfa drops to the ground and hugs the tiger. "Try to like her."
"Wouldn't count on it."
"What is she saying?" Ninfa asks me.
"Oh.. you know.. not to count on it. Stuff like that."
"Demon that doesn't lie. You sicken your own kind."
   I rub the back of my neck. "I already know that."
"She's left my side at nights for a demon. You smell like death."
    My stomach turns.. ..do I?
"She seems like a friendly tiger."
"Can she stay for the night?"
    The fear of having her disappointed is outweighed over getting my head ripped off as I sleep.
"Yeah. That's fine."
    Ninfa's eyes brighten. She smiles to me and my heart races again.
"You've done something to her. You've ruined her."
    The tiger has a great way to make one feel pretty... fantastically terrible.
    Ninfa lets go of Misty and walks over and grabs my hand. It makes me feel slightly better. "Got work to do."
    I lean down and kiss her cheek.
"You're filthy and dare touch one of the light."
    My heart.. I sigh and we walk out of my room. I hear the tiger lay down.
    Joel gives us the headphones and then we are off.
"You're not telling me something." She says as we are flying.
"She doesn't like me. She won't like me. She said so herself."
"Not that. You aren't staying something else. I can see it in your eyes."
"Let's just say that all she said is true."
   I land and she does too. As I morph back her hands take mine.
"What did she say?"  
    I sigh. "Sicken my own. Smell like death. Ruined you. I'm filthy."
    Her eyes show an extreme amount of sadness. "I don't think that's true."
"Sicken my own kind, yes. Probably do smell like death to high sense animals. Definitely ruined you because you're in love with me. I took a shower.. but it was said cause I kissed you."
   Her hands drop mine and arms wrap around me. "I'm sorry. I can take her home when we get done for the night."
"No, I said she can stay. I don't want her hating me more for making you take her. And me.. telling.. you.. what she said."
   I look down to her. She sighs. She raises on her tippy toes and kisses my lips lightly.
   Before I get the chance to kiss back the gangs start fighting each other. Thanks... And the night begins.