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Chapter 47

-VALERIE'S P.O.V-

    I hear her cry and I wonder why. I wonder why she cries when I has told her not to. She's too beautiful.
"Don't cry. Too beautiful." I almost choke out.
"Oh my fuck."
   She leans up and takes me in a tight hug. I almost want to cry from a pain but it goes away quickly.
"Hey, love."
"Hey? Hey? You wake up from a fucking coma and all I get is a fucking hey?"
"Coma?"
"It's been almost 9 months."
    My heart breaks. My.. my heart just shatters. I missed our wedding.
"I..I.. missed.. o..our wedding..." I find myself stuttering out the words.
"It's okay."
"No it's not. It's not. I'm so sorry." I feel tears fall.
"We have time. I don't care right now. I just am happy that you're actually here. I've missed you so much."
"I'm so sorry."
"We can always reschedule. I don't care right now. I have you. I have you  finally."
   I nuzzle in her embrace. She kisses my forehead and the pains I had leave. She's amazing.
"What can I do? What can I do to fix this?"
"You waking up is the best thing I could have ever hoped for."
    I feel so many tears. Tears just streaming. Just hiding my face in her embrace and crying to her...
"Please forgive me, Ninfa."
"There's nothing to forgive, baby. It's not your fault."
    I pull away from her arms, she wipes my tears. "I can get it ready? I can have it ready. We can. I can. I can get it all rea.." she kisses my lips and shuts me up.
   My heart skips beats, skip beats and hurts. Hurts for the time I lost. For the time I missed.
   The kiss... the kiss parts...
"I'm so sorry..."
    I'm weak from her healing me... but.. I can't leave. I won't rest.
"Don't be sorry."
"I should have fought with my power more."
"Then you'd be a hollow shell and I'd much prefer you with your humanity."
    The tears won't stop. I've never been this sad. And my heart is going as fast as my mind is racing.
    Does... this mean.. we're not engaged anymore? Does she even want a wedding now? She doesn't...
    I try to get out of bed but it only gets me to the ground. She rushes to my side, being the angel she is... I've never felt so much heartache. And I'm probably only doing this to myself.
   She could want a wedding. She could still want to get married. She could... but why would she? Why would anyone of their love had missed the first?
   She lifts me up and puts me back on the bed.
"Please stop crying."
"I'm sorry."
"Val.."
"I ruined it all. I ruined the wedding. And now you don't want to get married. I don't even know if that means we're still engaged. I'm sorry. I wish I could have done better for you. You deserve better. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.." my words just spill. I don't think I had control to stop them...
"We're still engaged. I want to get married and have the wedding. I don't care if you think I deserve better. I only want you. So when you're better, we can try to work something out. Until then, maybe calm down."
    She's right for me to calm down. I'm in a panic attack. Or on the edge about to start one. But it hurts my heart hurts and not in a way she can fix.
    I ruined everything. I ruined it all. It's.. And she wants me still? I don't understand. I don't understand.
   I feel like something is stabbing into my chest... My back too... there's nothing.. there's nothing there. I don't understand.
    She's talking. Joel came in... he's talking.. I can't fucking hear them... I can't...
    The old Elder wizard dude thingy came in... And Ninfa's worrisome eyes are the last thing I see before I'm put to sleep.

    I wake and she's gone. They're gone... everyone..
    I get up and slowly make my way into the living room. She's not in here either..
"She's taking out a den."
"By herself?"
"You protected her. Literally nothing can kill her unless you're dead."
    I rub the back of my neck and sigh. "I ruined everything, Joel."
"Don't go in another panic attack. You didn't ruin anything."
"Will you help me? Help me get a wedding done?"
"Why don't you wait?"
"For what? She waited enough. She deserves better... but.. And I just want to give her everything."
"You being awake is all I care about right now, Val."
   She flops down on the couch and lays her head in my lap. "Just relax. We have all the time in the world."
"It's not the same. We're suppose to be married and we're not and it's my fault."
"Val. We can when you're back to your full strength. I don't mind waiting, it doesn't matter as much because you're here now. Can't you see that that is all I want? We can still get married but I don't want to until you're healthy again."
   Her hand reaches up and cups my cheek. I lean into it and sigh.
"Oh. When did you get here?"
"Is she talking to me?"
"No, I'm talking an idiot that had to actually ask the question."
    I feel my cheeks heat up. I do feel rather stupid for asking... but Ninfa was gone in a den? So it seemed normal to ask?
"I've been in here for a while."
   She headbutts me. And it shocks me. "Did.. I get like brain damage or some shit? Or am I seeing things?"
    Misty headbutts me again. I'm seriously in shock...
"Uh.."
"She would watch over you while I was out fighting."
"Hate to admit it. But I missed your annoying ass."
"Should I feel complimented, honored or offended?"
    I look around for someone to answer but they all shrug.
"It was like I was gone for a day or so for me. It was.. like I went to sleep."
"In reality, your dumbass had been out for months."
    I mentally sigh. Nothing can give her back the time I had taken. I will never forgive myself for it.
"Anyway. I got you a gift."
    Joel shows me a jar. Filled with teeth.. Filled with.. the.. teeth.
   My chest hurts instantly to seeing them but I hide the pain. It's all in my head. The pain isn't real. Nothing is in there anymore. I'm healed. I'm good. It's in my head.
"Thank you?"
    He puts the jar on the fireplace. Ninfa's eyes catch mine and she can see it. I wish I could hide things from her but it's impossible for me to because I have given myself to her and I meant that, if she tapped in the power hard enough, she would be able to read my mind.
"I'm rather tired. Feel dirty. Would like to shower." She gets up and walks to our room.
   I follow close behind. I don't want to leave her. I don't want to be away from her. I can't.
    She goes into the bathroom and begins undressing. In my sadness I had almost missed her beauty. Not just her body, her overall beauty.
   She turns on the shower and turns to me. "Are you not joining?"
"I get an invitation?"
    She laughs... her laugh make my heart feel better. I undress and follow her lead.
   She hovers to my level.
"I hate it wh.."
"When I do this because you find it cute the way I have to stand on my tippy toes to kiss you."
"Yeah."
   Her legs wrap around me and arms around my neck. I wrap my arms around her tightly. I hide my face in her shoulder and neck.
"It's okay, Valerie. Don't worry about it. I would have waited forever if I had to."
"It's the fact you had to wait."
"It's okay. When you're better, we can plan it again. It really doesn't matter when because in the end I'll call you my wife."
    I can't help a smile grow. A massive smile. And my heart flutters constantly to the thought.
    I pull away enough and she kisses my cheek. I sigh to it. "What did I do to deserve you, Nin?"
"Being a hero."
    I laugh at her words. "That is full of bullcrap."
    She kisses me and it actually takes me by surprise because I thought she was going to argue. But if this is her way to counter against my words, I don't mind.
"I've missed you.." She mumbles against my lips.
    Her lips claim mine again. The kiss takes my breath away. And we part when it begins to suffocate us.
"I'm.."
"If you say sorry one more time, I swear I'll.. I'll.."
   I raise my eyebrow. She lets out an exaggerating huff.
"You get the point."
"But I am."
"I know. I know you are. I know you're sorry, so there is no need to repeat it."
"Fine..."
    She hops down and stands on her tippy toes to kiss me, to obviously make me feel better. And it does, her kisses are literally magical... but always more special to me.
   The shower isn't very long.. mostly because I still feel rather weak and I guess that's normal? If I were human I wouldn't be walking around right now, I'd be dead... or unable to walk at all because I know I had a tooth in my neck.
    Climbing into bed and laying down seems normal... but her hold on me isn't.
"I'm not going anywhere, love. I assure you, I will never leave you."
    Her arms loosen slightly but still hold me tight. I nuzzle close to her though.
"Don't say sorry. Just listen. I missed you. I'm ready to get married and we will soon. As long as you're here now, I am happy."
"See my problem was I didn't fight hard enough. I should have known it was a trap."
"What happened? You don't have to answer but if you want to talk about it."
   My chest begins hurting again.. my.. body.. aches.
"I got to the tower after breaking out of the dungeon. They released the crossbreed fuckos. At least it was the colossal hounds. But I was surrounded. Trapped by two regular hounds while the cross one had jumped me. I beheaded it but it's teeth remained. And then the blacksmith who made my... chains..... had come and threw a sword into my chest on top of the other stuff."
"A sword?"
"Yeah. He's probably dead now. Or his friends have made him into some sort of wall ornament."
    She laughs in confusion. "What? Why?"
"I cut his limbs off with his own sword and then stabbed through his chest and lodged the the sword in the wood door... so he was just handing there.."
    Her eyes grow wide. "Damn."
"I've heard you curse like 10 times. What has happened to you?"
"Not 10 times."
"Something like that."
   She shrugs. I lean up and kiss her lips. It's her that hums to the kiss, normally it's me... but at least I can make her happy.
    At least I still have that. To be able to make her happy.