Memories That Fade Like Photographs (Jack Barakat - All Time Low fanfiction)

Chapter 30: Remembering Sunday

ALEX POV

"This next song I will sing is called Remembering Sunday" I started to strum the guitar.

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes

Started making his way past 2 in the morning

He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze

Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees

They had breakfast together

But two eggs don't last

Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him

She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin

She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs

Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find

My calling, I'm calling at night

I don't mean to be a bother,

But have you seen this girl?

She's been running through my dreams

And it's driving me crazy, it seems

I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,

He's determined to call her bluff

Who could deny these butterflies?

They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces

He pleads though he tries

But he's only denied

Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find

My calling, I'm calling at night

I don't mean to be a bother,

But have you seen this girl?

She's been running through my dreams

And it's driving me crazy, it seems

I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away

Funny how it rained all day

I didn't think much of it then

But it's starting to all make sense

Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds

Are following me in my desperate endeavor

To find my whoever, wherever she may be

Suddenly, Tay came out from backstage to join me and sing Juliet's part. The crowd roared in her sudden appearance.

I'm not coming back

I've done something so terrible

I'm terrified to speak

But you'd expect that from me

I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just

Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind

Keeping an eye on the world,

From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now

I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

Suddenly, while Tay was singing her part, I feel nostalgic.

I remembered the things I felt after I learned Mel had gone.

I remembered why I fall to her in the first place.

I smiled.

I understand now. I understand that there our some things that could never be ours no matter how much we want it and the only option is to let go. She could never be mine. I should be letting go like the boy in Remembering Sunday.

I understand that the past is the past. I'm in the present. Remember how I survived without her but with Lisa? I was too caught up in the moment to forget Lisa. I should move on now. I should get her back and let things fall back into places.

Amelie will always be my first love.

First love never dies but I need to move on... by accepting it.

I guess this is what Zack really means.

Well I guess I'll go home now...

I guess I'll go home now...

I guess I'll go home now...

I guess I'll go home

The song ended and the show continued.

I should go talk to Tay.

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I knocked at the bus door and waited for someone to open it.

It opened and Tay appeared.

"We need to talk." I told her.

She nodded as she stepped out of the bus. I pulled her hand and led her somewhere quiet.

"What is it that you want to say?" She asked me with a smile.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, but I think I don't love you the way you do. I think that it was more like a fling." I told her.

Her smile dropped of.

*slap*

She slaps me. She is angry and she is crying now.

"Sorry?? Is that all you can say? You know what?! You're a dick! For fuck's sake I didn't know I was so stupid." She shouted at me.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"Sorry? Is that all I get? Am I like a toy you can just use and leave?"

I remained silent.

I deserve every word she's saying. I know how much I hurt her. I know douche I was. Its all my fault. I feel guilty.

"You know what? Go fuck yourself." Then she walks out.

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AMELIE POV

Jack and I are sitting on the couch as we watch Home Alone.

The suddenly, the bus door flew open. And I saw Tay coming.

"What happened?!" She was in a terrible state. I hugged her as she breaks down.

I eyed Jack to leave us a bit which he gladly did. He went to the bunks.

"A-alex. H-he-" She chokes.

"He said he doesn't love me enough. It was just like a fling."

"What?! He did that?" Tay nodded at me.

I was surprised that Alex did that. I mean, I know him being loyal although he's an idiot sometimes.

"Tay. It's alright. There are much more deserving than a prickhead like him. Maybe he has a reason."

"I hope so..." She said as she wiped her tears.

"Come on, would like some ice cream and cake? Let's not think about it okay?"

She smiled, "Sure."