8 RULES OF A CONCUBINE

Chapter 38: Where is Sangria?

TEDROS

I slowly tasted Sangria's last kiss for me. 

Running my tongue on my lower lip.. savoring her lips on mine. 

I shut my eyes tight to feel it.. 

Too bitter.

Too damn bitter that her kiss is a taste of betrayal, hurt and disappointment.

Hindi ko na napigilan at tumulo na ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan. 

Remembering Sangria's eyes.. my most favorite eyes in the world crying like that.. it hurted me so darn bad. So darn bad I wish she just had killed me. 

Hindi pa rin ako makagalaw mula sa kinatatayuan ko.. hindi rin ako makamulat.. patuloy pa rin ang pagbagsak ng luha ko sa nakasara kong mga mata. 

I just cant go meet people only for them to see a supposedly brave General is crying because of a broken heart. 

And why does it hurt this bad? Ive experienced this before. If what I did just hurted her, what does she think I felt when I saw her with Scott?

She is fcking with Scott! Nagmadali akong umuwi! Kahit umuulan, tinakbo ko ang siyudad hanggang palasyo dahil nasira ang sinasakyan ko.

The drivers think Im stupid for running a great distance, but the hell, for you, I can do anything! Only to find out youre screwing with Scott?!

I should be the one saying my goodbyes and not the other way around!!

"Tedros?" rinig ko sa boses ni Miranda na papalapit sa akin. 

"Ted! Nandiyan ka lang pala! Alam mo bang kanina pa kita hinahanap!"

"Fck off." mahinang bulong ko. 

"What?" punta na ni Miranda sa harap ko. 

And now I can see her reaction.. seeing me like this in a very miserable state.

"Oh my god Ted! Are you crying-"

"I SAID FCK OFF!" malakas na sigaw ko kaya napaatras sya. 

Tumalikod na ko at nagsimulang umalis. 

Ang dami kong nakasalubong ngunit ni isa sa kanila di ko pinansin.

Now I think of everyone as lying bastards. I know they just bow down to me cause Im the former King's son. 

I just cant trust anyone now. Scott, Celestine and Sangria. A liar is always a liar and a cheater will always be a cheat. They are everything I hate in a person. Hinding hindi na talaga ako magtitiwala!

Dumiretso na lang ako sa kwarto ko para mapag-isa. 

Now I felt my hand throbbing from gripping Sangria's necklace, bracelet and phone too tight. I settled her belongings carefully inside a drawer and cried more. 

Since Im a silent crier, I can entirely feel my heart ripping from my chest. 

A lot had been knocking on my door but I didnt see anyone. Really, I just want to die. Sangria is my future and now she's gone. Why am I still breathing?

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I slept through the entire day and night only to wake up feeling dead in the morning. 

I looked at the clock and its already mid morning. 

Babalik sana ako sa pagtulog ng may kumatok sa kwarto ko. Di ko sana papansinin ngunit narinig ko ang boses ng Ama naming Hari. And since I dont have a choice, I stood up to open the door.