High School // Malec

Chapter 42.

I walked back and forth in my room, waiting for the doorbell to ring, signalling that Magnus is here. Immediately when I returned back home from the cemetery, I changed my clothes into somethings more viewable and styled my raven hair. Deep down, I knew that I didn't have to make myself look better in front of Magnus, but I really didn't want him to see me for the first time after so long and find out only by my look that I have been completely miserable without him by my side. Before I knew it, I heard how the doorbell went off and I knew that Magnus was here. I threw one last look into the mirror, making sure that I didn't look horrible and thereafter, I walked down the stairs and continued walking until I reached the entrance hall. The first thing I was when I opened the front door was Magnus. It was almost like everything else was blurred out and I could only focus on the beautiful man that stood in front of me.
- Hi, I stuttered and did everything I could to keep myself together
- Hi, Magnus answered and flashed me the smallest but also the most beautiful smile I ever have seen
I opened the front door a little bit more, giving Magnus more space to walk into the house. The two of us walked up the stairs and continued into my bedroom. I carefully closed the door behind us and when I knew that we were completely alone, I turned my attention towards him.
- I seriously can't believe that you're actually here, I stuttered and felt how a tear escaped from my eye
- Alexander, please don't cry. You know that I hate to see you in pain, Magnus answered and sighed
- I'm sorry
- Look, I know that shouldn't have left New York without saying goodbye, but I couldn't face you. The things that you yelled at me the day Max died, they were horrible. I grew up with the fear that my mother killed herself because she couldn't stand me and when you said that, it was like my fear became real, Magnus said and I could see how he did everything to not start crying
- I had absolutely no rights to say that and I want you to know that there's no way that your mother killed herself because she couldn't stand you anymore. Mackenzie loved you more than anything, I said and walked up to where Magnus was standing in the middle of my room
- If she loved me, why did she leave me when I needed her the most? Magnus asked and this time, tears was streaming down his cheeks
- She had her own demons inside of her head that she couldn't fight against any longer, I answered
I was finally close enough to Magnus and without scaring him, I dragged my hand through his raven hair and felt how he relaxed under my touch.
- I want you to know that no matter what happens, I'll always love you
I could see how my words brought even more tears to his beautiful crystal clear eyes and it killed me to see that he was in so much pain.
- Can you ever forgive me? I asked
- I really don't know, Magnus answered with a stuttering voice
He took a few steps away from me, almost like he was afraid that he would break under my touch.
- Please, tell me what I should do.
I need you in my life, Magnus
- I need you in my life too, but you have to understand my situation. I trusted you with my life that you wouldn't hurt me, but you did, Magnus answered and dried a few tears that escaped from his eyes
- I know that I hurt you and I hate myself for it, but I can't continue with my life if you're not in it
- Don't say that, Alexander. You have your whole life in front of you
- Do you remember what you told me when we stood at the bridge? That you didn't want the world, you wanted me. Do you still want me? I asked with a really worried voice
- I do, Magnus answered and the small smile on his lips was back
- I want you too, I said and I didn't even care that I sounded desperate
- I should hate you, Magnus said
At first I thought that he was serious, but when I noticed that the smile still hadn't left his lips, I knew that he didn't mean what he said.
- I want to prove it to you that I'm worthy of your life, just like I told you in my text message, but I can't prove anything if you don't let me, I said and looked into Magnus eyes
- If I let you prove yourself to me, do you promise me that no matter how hard things get, don't push me away, Magnus said with a serious voice
- I promise, I answered
As a response, Magnus only nodded his head and that was all I needed to know that we might actually be okay. I carefully pressed my lips against his, afraid that he would pull away, but when he finally kissed me back, I could feel how every damn butterfly in my stomach went bananas. I placed one of my hands in Magnus hair and carefully pulled on it while my other hand was placed on his hip, closing the small distance between our two bodies.
- Please don't ever leave me again, I whispered against our lips as we broke the wonderful kiss for air
- I need to go back to Indonesia and grab my things but when I return back to New York, I'm not going anywhere, Magnus whispered back
- Good
I pressed my lips against his once again in a passionate kiss and felt how Magnus smiled all the way through it. I still couldn't believe that the love of my life was back in my arms, but now that I actually know what it feels like to be without him, I don't ever want to be it again.

// TBC \\

Hello angels❤️

I decided to give you all one more update today because I love you all so much❤️

MALEC is finally back together and honestly, I have missed seeing my babies happy🙈

I love you all and thanks for always supporting me❤️

STAY AWESOME

-Mathilda