****Shout out to my homegirl Sonotfetch who pointed out I'm at Chapter 50. Ey! Ey! Dances like Aug no dancing behind lol. J/K he got a lil rhythm.
AMBER P.O.V.-
I planted soft sensual kisses on August’s collar bone and laid on his chest.
“Watch out.” He got up, turned on the light and put on his underwear.
“Babe?” I held the cover against my naked body, confused as to why he was acting this way.
Everything was fine when he picked me up from the airport. He cooked me dinner and we had just got done making love.
He was sitting on the edge of the bed and I kissed his bare back, wrapped my arms around his waist from behind, and let the cover fall off of me. I laid my head on his back.
“What’s wrong baby?”
“You gone for damn near a whole fucking week and that’s all you got to give me?” He turned his head but not his body around to look at me.
“What are you talking about baby?” I giggled and kissed his lips but he didn’t kiss me back.
His face remained in this serious expression, with his eyes narrowed looking at me.
“I put everything I have into making love to you, and you lay there like some dead ass fish?”
“Baby I’m a little bit tired.” I ran my fingers through my hair.
“If I’m missing you, I don’t care how tired I am, I’mma give you all I got. You half-assed that shit, like I’m some unattractive ass nigga you gotta force yourself to fuck.”
“That’s not true baby. Like I told you, I’m just tired.”
“Bullshit!”
He put his hands in a praying position starring straight at the wall.
I looked at him waiting for him to say something.
I have to admit I was totally distracted by this whole Nate thing. My mind wasn’t focused on August as it probably should’ve been, while we were making love. It was the guilt of trying to decide whether to tell him or not.
In one sense I felt it was necessary, seeing as we always are honest with each other. But in another sense, I didn’t think it was a big deal because I knew Nate didn’t mean any harm by it. He was just reacting to someone actually caring about him for the first time. And I didn’t want to create any unnecessary drama. He had gone through enough. And I actually cared for Nate in a friend sorta sense. He needed somebody, and I’m sorry, I just don’t have the heart to abandon somebody in need. I didn’t abandon August in his time of need before we started dating, for this very reason. Call it a savior complex - whatever. It’s just who I am.
August didn’t change his position, he just slightly turned his head.
“Did you have an orgasm?”
My heart stop beating for a moment.
“Why would you ask that?”
“Don’t play dumb with me Amber. Answer my fucking question. Yes or No.”
I sighed heavily, and quietly said, “No.”
He got up and walked toward the washroom.
“But it had nothing to do with you baby.” I yelled out.
He slammed the door and the next thing I heard was him throwing stuff around.
I put my knees up to my chin and buried my head into my arms.
