winchester brothers imagines

s.w//i can't

"Sam stop!" You say angrily as he grabs your wrist for the hundredth time. 

"Please Y/N." He begs. 

You shove your clothes into a bag and rush around the room to collect the rest of your things.

"Sam I'm done." You say sternly.

"Y/N don't go." Sam whispers.

You turn and meet his eyes, your heart completely shattering. Tears are streaming down his face and hurt burns in his watery eyes. You look away, fighting the urge to run into his arms. 

"Please let me go." You choke out, your own tears beginning to fall. 

"I--I can't." He whispers, his voice laced with pain. 

A sob wracks through your body and you grab the dresser to steady yourself. Sam steps forward to catch you but you stick an arm out.

"Don't." You whisper.

You know as soon as you feel his touch, you won't be able to leave. 

"We can fix this. We can do this Y/N I know we can." He says.

"No we can't. We tried Sam, it didn't work. I have to go." You say, wiping your tears away.

"No you don't. I can't l--live without y--you." He whimpers.

You turn to him, anger burning in your eyes.

"And you think I can?! You think that I want to leave you, Dean, and Cass? I don't! It is the last thing on this planet that I would ever do but Sam I can't do this anymore. The toll that this lifestyle and relationship is taking on me is too much. You have to let me go." You weep. 

Sam stays silent, more tears falling from his face. 

"You're my other half. You're all I want." He murmurs, letting his head fall. 

You close your eyes as another tear falls down his face.

"Sammy you are the only one that I will ever want. But I can't stay here." You say, slinging your bag over your shoulder. 

"Please don't leave me alone." He says, his red rimmed blue eyes staring intensely into yours. 

You can't take it any longer and step in front of him, taking his face in your hands. You wipe his tears away with your thumbs.

"Samuel Winchester you are the love of my life and imagining life without you is nearly impossible, but I just can't go on like this. I can't hunt anymore. I'm so exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally and I'm afraid that it will eventually kill me. I'm not ready to go, I don't want to, so I have to do what is best for me. No matter how much it kills me." You say, your eyes not leaving his. 

"I can leave it. I can leave it all behind. I'm ready." He says.

"No. No you can't. You can't leave your brother and you know it." You say.

He closes his eyes again as more tears fall from them. 

"B--But you're all I--I want." He whispers. 

You bring his forehead down to meet yours, still holding his face. 

"We will keep in touch." You say. 

Sobs escape from his mouth and he wraps his hands around your wrists, falling to his knees. Your heart falls and you kneel down to kiss his lips one last time. You collide your lips with his soft ones and melt into his touch. The salty taste of his tears mixes with his sweet taste and your head spins. You are going to crave this when you're gone. You pull away, touching your forehead to his again.

"I'm yours. Don't forget that." You say and stand up.

Sam still sits on the floor, looking completely defeated and deflated. You walk towards the door and turn one last time to look at him. 

"Goodbye Sammy." You whisper and shut the door.

You stop and slide down the door, pulling your knees into your chest and begin wailing. Inside you can hear Sam shouting and throwing things.

"WHY?" He screams.

Crash

"FUCK!" He screams again.

Crash

You can't take it anymore and walk to your car, climbing in and taking a last look at the place you have called home for all of these years. You hear more crashes and screaming inside and you start the car, pulling off into the moonlit night, leaving your whole world behind.