No Escape

Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18.

"Happy 10th birthday Xanti, what is your wish, baby?"

"I want to see you. That's my wish."

"Soon, Xanti. Soon. Please wait a little longer, please baby."

"How long? Gaano katagal pa ako mag hihintay, mommy?"

"Hanggang sa kaya ko na."

"When? Mom, i miss you."

"Xanti, promise gagawa si mommy ng paraan para makuha kita dyan pero sa ngayon maghintay ka muna huwag kang gagawa ng kahit anong masama okay? Gumagawa na si mommy na paraan mahihintay mo ba ako?"

"Okay, I will."

I'll wait. Until you can fight for me mom. To be hidden I don't like birthdays, nothing special.

"Alam mo ba criminal pala daddy niya. Mommy said na huwag akong lalapit sa kaniya."

"Really? Scary huh."

Lumaki akong walang kaibigan, noong grade school ako. Walang gustong makipag kaibigan sa akin. Why? Their parents wont allowed them to play with me beause of my father. Because he's a criminal.

Hanggang sa lumaki na ako.

I was eleven when I started to drink alcohol. You know my dad said if you're sad and want to forget everything. Alcohol can take all of your problems and your sadness. Haha he was right. Dahil sa panaginip ko masaya ako, isa akong normal na bata na kasama ang kaniyang ina. Isa akong normal na bata na may maraming kaibigan. May nag aaruga sakin, hindi ko kailangan mag isa.

When I was twelve years old I had a crush, she's so cute, she's very pretty. I want to be friends with her but her mom told her to avoid me. I really want her so that's why i kidnapped her and my father supported me he even helped me. She likes me too so you can't call that rape, right if She likes it too? Sl*t.

Thirteen years old for the first time i tried to use drugs it's marijuana. Sabi ni daddy nakakapag bigay ng saya daw ang pag gamit niyon and He's right. He was f*cking right. I'm so happy I feel like I'm flying, like I have super powers.

Fourteen, nakapatay na ako. I killed my teacher, why? Dahil sinabi niya na kawawa ako. She said my mom doesn't want me. Nilagyan ko ng lason ang iniinom niya, walang may alam na ako ang pumatay sa kaniya ang akala ng tao inatake lang siya sa puso. Poor old lady.

Fifteen years old nang mapansin kong kapareho ko na siya. I'm a demon, a r*pist, a cr*m*nal, a k*ller.

Magkapareho na kami.

Akong ako na siya. Nagawa niyang baguhin ako. He said na kung may gusto ako kunin ko. Kung kailangan kong pumatay para makuha iyon pumatay ako. At ginagawa ko naman.