matty healy, falling in love over night

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"your sure?" kian asked

"yes! london just, london holds too many bad memories" i told him

"you're my baby sister, i feel like i was suppose to protect you from this shit" he said avoiding eye contact

i stepped towards him and hugged him, while my face wasn't facing his i let a single tear slide down my cheek

"you did kian, i promise"

i pulled back from the hug and looked at lewis, he was a sweet boy, they both were and i really did want the best for them

"thankyou for having me" i told them both

"shutup kid you know we'd do it over again" lewis told me pulling me into another hug

i turned to grab my bags and load them into gemma's car, i'd gotten a flat down in manchester. nothing special, it was all i could afford and i was pulling strings to even get this.
i had a job waiting for me down there as an assistant in the same firm as i worked for in london. and uni had nearly been sorted, i just had to go in and finalise things once i had settled.
me and gemma were hanging the rent as we were both going to live there, it made sense. we both needed a way out and this was the best way

i placed my final suitcase in the trunk of gemma's car and she smiled at me from the drivers seat

"ready?" she called

"two secs i just need to give kian a letter" i told her rushing back into the house

"ki, this is for matty if he comes round" i said pressing an envelope into his hand

"don-" i started to say, i didn't want matty to know where me and gemma were moving

"we won't tell him where you are, we promise" he assured me, i smiled before giving my brother a final hug

"love you guys!"

"goodluck" called lewis

"love you!" shouted kian as i ran back to the car.

gemma was waiting to turn on the ignition when i jumped in the passenger seat, this time it was a true clean break.
no matty.
no mentions of matty.
just me and gemma.

gemma and i had become increasingly close over the past few weeks and had decided we both needed to get out of london and have a fresh start. so we did. we picked our things and found a flat in manchester.
i didn't expect to move in with mattys ex but that's life for you.

she had taught me to be strong and recently i needed that in my life more than anything. we didn't know each other very well but we knew enough to know living together was a good idea

"let's go" i said looking at her, she pulled her sunglasses down from her head to cover her eyes

"you left a letter then?" she asked

"yeah"

"i wouldn't have"

"i know but he has to know for the baby" i told her

"he deserves nothing" gemma spat

"let's not, matty deserves nothing and we are getting what we deserve. a fresh chance away from him"

"it's not fair. he's nearly ruined both our lives and he gets off Scott free" gemma huffed

"it will come back one day. gabby will eventually leave and he will be alone once people understand how awful he is" i told her

she smiled at me while cruising down the highway

"i don't understand how your not filled with anger ... your whole relationship was a lie if you don't mind me saying"

"oh i am" i assured her

"i spend most nights crying over how i thought i finally had someone. but it's like you said .. don't let him destroy me and the life i've worked so hard to have"

"i'm glad to be out of london, he ruined that place for us"

"he did" i sighed

as the hours lay i watched the world go by. so much had happened in such little time. i found out the sex of the baby. it was a little girl. gemma came with me, assured me everything was fine and i was brave.

matty didn't try to see me, he didn't even ask about the sex of the baby. maybe that burned the most? the way my heart still aches for him every second of the day cake a close second. there were nights i thought i'd die from the pain i was in. i spent hours crying and begging for relief. i couldn't be in so much longer and keep going. but i had a baby girl on the way. matty didn't get to ruin this. i refused

george tried to call me but after he didn't tell me about gabby and matty i didn't really want him in my life either. he showed up at the house begging kian to let him see me. i refused to leave my room. he was my best friend. the one person i thought had my back. he was there with me when i needed but when it came to the truth he hid it and that i didn't know if i could get past.

i saw gabby in town when i was buying some baby clothes, the way she smirked. she had won. i wanted to yell and scream at her but i simply didn't have the energy to care anymore. she had gotten what she wanted. matty. that's all she ever wanted and maybe i was stupid to think i could win.

ross and adam swore they didn't know but they were too closely tied to matty. i told them i loved them deeply, which i did, but if i needed a clean break they would have to stay in the past. i think they understood. i hoped they did. i truly loved them.

carly and me barley spoke, i told her i wa dm oomf and nothing more. she wished me well.

"maybe we will go back to london  one day?" she said pulling me out of my day dream

i let my breath steam up the glass as i drew a smiley face in the fog

"maybe"