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∆ 8. DRUNKEN CONFESSION ∆

Here's to the ones that we got
Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
Of everything we've been through
Toast to the ones here today
Toast to the ones that we lost on the way
'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories
And the memories bring back, memories bring back you

Memories, Maroon 5

Jin's

Taehyung left.

What do I expect? For him to envelope me to a hug and shower me with kisses and say I love you back? That would be wishful thinking.

I shouldn't have admitted my feelings for him, now we're ruined. I lost Taehyung in the worst way possible. I know he won't come back. Taehyung's heart will always belong to Kookie, and me, Jin, will always stay as his hyung. Nothing more, nothing less. He won't see me as someone he could spend his lifetime with.

I should have just said that I like Namjoon. It's true, I like him, but I don't love him as much as I love Taehyung. I like him because he makes me feel wanted and taken care of. He was the complete opposite of Taehyung. He admitted his feelings for me but I turned him down. I don't want to give false hopes. He understood immediately, and say that we will just remain friends.

I really wish right now that all my love for Taehyung would just be transferred for Namjoon so I won't be in pain anymore. Loving Taehyung is pain. Loving him means hurting yourself in the process. Loving him is death itself.

I never thought Taehyung would be this numb and stupid not to know that I love him. We have been friends for years now and he didn't noticed that above anyone he is my top priority and I will risk everything for him, but he interpreted that as I'm just doing it because we are best friends. Because he is my favorite person.

I've been crying for hours and my tears won't stop. My head is aching and I feel so tired. Taehyung is really not coming back. I lost him. I lost my life and my love. I covered my face with my hands and sobbed harder.

"Taehyung come back."

And I think I was heard by the heavens when the front door opened and I can hear someone going upstairs. It's Taehyung. I know his steps. It's him. I quickly got up, but before I can reach the door he is already inside my room.

He looked drunk and wasted. He stepped closer to me and took a look at me. He smiled so fondly and I swear my knees weakened at that.

"I missed you."

He spoke so softly and caressed my cheeks. "What are you saying? We've just been together awhile ago. Don't say silly things. Change clothes and sleep. We'll talk tomorrow."

"I love you."

My world stopped. Did I hear it right?

"I love you so much." He repeated and suddenly kissed me.

His mouth tasted like alcohol, he's intoxicating. But I have to push him away. This is not right. We need to talk first.

"Stop. You're drunk."

I pushed him away. He is too close. Dangerously close.

But he did not listened. He joined our lips together and this time I got tired of pushing him away. I have longed to be kissed by him for the longest time and wherever this takes us, I will allow it. Even if it's his drunk consciousness that talked and said I love you to me, it's still the same and his kisses proved that he loves me. Finally, I made my way in his heart.

Every stroke of his tongue and how his hands roam to my body made me crazy. My head is spinning and we were full on making out. His lips travels to different parts of my body and I just moaned his name over and over again. Our clothes were now gone and he is holding me so close never wanting to let go.

"That's it, baby, moan my name." He managed to lay me down on the bed and his hot breath now in my member. He took me in his mouth and sucked me. "Oh Taehyung!" O breathlessly moaned and I grabbed a handful of his hair as he continued pleasuring me, and in no time I released my load in his mouth.

He went back on kissing me and without warning he entered my hole. I shouted in pure pain. It's my first time and he did not do any preparations. It hurts like hell. I cried and whimpered as his length is inside me.

"Relax, baby. It will be better"

He kissed my tears away and slowly thrust inside out. The first few thrusts were vey painful but as he kept moving, it all subsided and it was turned to pleasure. He was busy licking and sucking ny neck and thrust faster inside me. I can feel myself coming any minute.

"I'm coming, Tae!"

He pushed in faster and harder. "I'm coming too."

He kissed my lips and it did not took long for us to reach our climax. His head is still on the crook of my neck still kissing me. He pulled out and hugged me so tight.

"I love you, Taehyungie."

"I love you too, Jungkookie."

And all my hopes were shattered into pieces.