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∆ 27. A CLOSURE OR NOT? ∆

Taehyung's

"Take me to our son, hyung. I want to see him, please. I will help him of course."

I let him cry in my arms and God, how I wish I can take away every fear he had! I won't let our son die. I've longed for this miracle and now that I had this chace, I'm not going to let it slip.

Jin hyung looked at me and wiped his tears away. How badly I wanted to do that for him. I want to wipe away every tear from his eyes and give his heart comfort.

"But, Taehyung ..." He was hesitant for a moment, he seemed to have his own internal battle going on.

"Don't worry hyung, I won't force the kid to acknowledge me already. I just want to see him again, but it's also okay if you don't want to, I-I can understand since, your husband-"

He tapped my shoulder to stop me from talking, "What is it, hyung?"

"It's okay, Yoongi knows about it. He knows all of it. I just .." He sighed. "Fuck! Let's do this. You have your car?"

"No."

"Then let's take mine." He quickly stood up and walked away from that place. I was trailing behind him, watching his every move. I'm still in awe that he is here in front of me and that one of our babies managed to survive.

As I look at him take every stride my heart beats with him, it felt like a long time since I've felt this way. I can clearly hear my heartbeats every second that passes. Just like before, seven years ago, when I was still a fool and doesn't know that my life is standing in front of me, when my heart knows that it's Jin hyung that I want but my brain refuses to believe it. Just like before when I'm still with him. And now that he's here again, my heart that died for years became alive again.

"Hey! I knew it! You're that couple who always go here before! I can't be mistaken!"

My trance was broken when I heard an old man talking to us.

"No sir, we're not that couple. Maybe it's his husband that you saw before. I'm just his, acquaintance."

Jin hyung walked past the old man and said goodbye to him.

"Hyung, what acquaintance? You're more than that!" I really can't believe he used that term to label both of us.

"Why? Isn't that the appropriate term to use? We're nothing more than that."

I ... I don't know what to say, but my heart hurts.

"Not even a friend, hyung? Not even close to that?"

We reached his car and we went inside, he sat on the driver seat and me is beside him. He started the car and drove before he answered, "I don't know if we can be friends again, Taehyung. I have, HAD, feelings for you, we can never go back to how we used to before."

"Why?"

I'm stupid? Yes I know that. Asking questions that I clearly know the answer.

"Because, Everytime that I will see you, there will be a lot of consequences that can happen. Not just to you but for my marriage also. We're not young anymore, Taehyung. Nit young enough to revolve ourselves around love and the rainbows and unicorns that we expect it to feel. We're adults now, we have other priorities."

I so badly want to tell him that I love him and I will do anything to make him risk everything but that would be a selfish move. He is happy now. I won't demand anything from him, I'll just be contented like this. Loving him from afar while he loves his husband so much.

"Taehyung, how are you? I mean, how have you been the last seven years?"

I waited for you. I wanted to say that, but it's nit the right thing to do.

"I'm okay. I had a daughter named Heize, she's six and she's with his father in the US. Nothing's changed much, hyung. Still the same."

"I see. By the way, maybe Hoseok can still conduct a test on you and see if you will match our son and be a perfect donor. I hope this works. I'm nervous."

As much as I want to touch him in any way to comfort him, I can't. He is now married and I don't want to give him a reason to hate me. This is the only way I can redeem myself to what I did to him years ago, by experiencing how he felt when I'm with Jungkook.

"Everything will be okay, hyung. I will move heaven and Earth to make our son live longer."

And for the first time today, he smiled at me. "Thank you Taehyung. Thank you for accepting our son."

My heart did a somersault, I swear! Fuck! I pray I will survive the following days without having the urge to take him away from his man.

"You don't need to thank me for that hyung, I was an asshole before. I'm the one who should say sorry. I'm really sorry hyung."

"Let's not talk about that. It's in the past. Let's just move on. We can't always blame each other and ourselves about the past years. Let's just be a better parent to our children and better husbands."

I wish I can do that and just move on, but how? Not when I think about how I badly wish I'm his husband and the one beside him through all of these. Now, I can taste the bitterness of regret. I am so in trouble because of this.

Thoughts? Opinions? Can I please know?