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∆ 14. UNCERTAIN ∆

I'm hanging out with someone else
I think they like me too
When in lust, it's hard to tell
When everything feels so new
I kissed her hips to find some help
But I know it's not the truth
No matter what I tell myself
She's not as good, she's not as good

Valentine's Day - LANY

Lemme ask you a question before y'all proceed, I don't mean it in any way but just a pure and genuine question. If you are in Taehyung's shoes aren't you going to do the same thing? DON'T IGNORE ME 😥 Answer me, like on the realest level please.

Taehyung's

It's been days and me and Jungkook spent it together. Every after that seminar we will go straight to somewhere else and just have the time of our lives.

But something is not right. I just can't pinpoint it but I'm looking for something that has been missing. It's been a year since he's gone and a lot has changed. He said everything that has happened as to why he went missing this past year and I accepted it.

I'm happy everytime I'm with him but some things are really out of place there is a void in my heart that he is not filling up.

Unlike when I'm with Jin hyung.

I am confused as hell! Whenever I close my eyes and say I love you to Jungkook his face suddenly pops out of my head and I feel guilty. I know I should be, technically he is my boyfriend but my first love is here.

I still can't let Jin go, but I can't lose Jungkook also. It's hard to be in between. Jin keeps me stable and Jungkook makes me alive. Both are important, both has a place in my heart.

"Guys! Let's take a photo for remembrance!"

One of my co-workers suggested, we are having dinner pn the lounge and Jungkook is by my side. We posed for the camera and smiled.

"Are you okay?" Jungkook asked me.

"Yes." I answered him shortly. I'm not in the mood to talk.

"You're a freak! Why did you do this to me!"

We heard someone shout and we all turned towards that direction a man was punched straight to the nose and gets slapped by someone who looks like somebody I know and my mind just went, "That looks like Jin."

"Tae, that guy looks like Jimin. It's funny how I am seeing things."

"Yeah. Me too, the other guy looks like Jin hyung." I unconsciously said.

"How about him? I missed Jin hyung! Tell me how he is." Jungkook is so excited but I don't want to talk to him.

"He's fine."

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Jin's

Taehyung's last text to me was yesterday saying he's okay and quite busy. I guess he really is because he never replied to me again.

I was with Namjoon today and we went to the clinic because I frequently vomit and I found out that I was pregnant with Taehyung's baby. I'm stressing out for days now on how will I tell him this when he doesn't know that something happened between us.

I was scrolling thru my Instagram and Namjoon was downstairs getting my food. The doctor said I'm very very sensitive so I need to limit moving around and as much as possible stop working because I've experienced spotting and I needed to be careful or else I'll lose my baby.