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∆ 19. IN CONTROL ∆

Jungkook's

It's been two days and Taehyung is still not talking to me, he's been ignoring me this whole time. I'm getting irritated and pissed.

How can he do that? Doesn't he have a conscience? He should feel guilty that I tried hurting myself because of him, right?

He should feel more affections towards me because I'm helpless, not this ignoring me for straight two days! He also tried to talk to me about moving out of his house and not to live with him. Of course I won't do that! What if he suddenly remember something? Then I won't be there to make up some reasons for him not to think it's real or he just missed Jin hyung so much.

For the past three years I've been feeding him false informations when he remembers something. I've hired lots of men to replace their every photo to my face. It took a lot of hard work and I thought it's worth it.

He fell head over heels with me, he hurt Jin more ways than one. I tried feeding him lies about Jin too, of course I had too, I always try and make him believe that Jin always try to ruin our relationship but he always defend his best friend.

I had to lie to a lot of people too, especially Taehyung's parents, they are out of the country and can't make it to go back here in Korea, they know me for a long time and didn't hesitate to hand me their son.

They know that Taehyung and Jin were and item and I need to tell them that Taehyung had an amnesia because Jin and him fought in the car because Jin cheated on him.

Surely, they got so mad at Jin and I told them not to mention his name ever again to prevent regaining that hurtful memory. Of course being a caring parent, they agreed.

Time passed and they learned about our relationship and they we're the happiest, unlike my parents, they always make a way to show Taehyung that I had done some nasty things because of him, but I got everything under control. I will always find out before they reach Taehyung.

I got everything under control but if Taehyung is acting like this, I am always freaking out. He can't and should not remember anything or else I'll be damned.

I know he's been an asshole all the time I was gone, he said so when we had our talk on the beach and it made me a little happy. It means I finally had that effect on him, if I would be gone, he'll lose it. It only takes a matter of time before I can fully take over his heart. I don't care of he had sex with anyone while I was gone, what's important is he is here with me now.

He is just woke up when I entered his room, if being weak is not gonna get him, then I still has another card to play.

"Taehyung? Can we talk for a moment?" I tried to sound hurt and weak. I needed to pretend that I didn't know anything and I'm the real victim.

"What is it?"

"Do you still love me? Are you still in love with me, Taehyung or I've wasted my time going back here because you won't accept me again? Why are you hurting me like this? I thought I'm your one and only love? I thought I'm the only one? But why does it look like Jin hyung is your top priority? Do you love him now?"

My tears fell. I feel really hurt and afraid, that I can't fake. But everything I said is a lie, of course I'm not his first and only love but I need to pretend that I am. Fake it till I make it. I need him to stay and fall hard so even if he remembers Jin, he would choose to stay because I own his heart.

"Jungkook, I know I've caused you a lot of pain. And I'm really sorry. Right now, I don't love you anymore. I feel like it has been like this ever since. I've been blinded by the fact that we are in a relationship and I need to be Faithful so I ignore what I feel and thought that it was just a friendly affection, but as I thought of it deeper this past few days, I realized it was something more. Those jealousy and possessiveness finally had a meaning."

"But I'm too late, he is gone and I'm an asshole so he probably won't forgive me. But that doesn't mean i can be the same to you, I still have the chance to make this right. I need to set you free to heal. You don't deserve to be treated like crap. I don't want you to experience what Jin hyung experienced with me. I need to let you go."

My hands formed into fists. I can't accept this! This is not the way it should be! "Don't say that! You don't mean it!"

"I mean it Kookie, we will just hurt each other and I can't be with you if my mind is not made up. You will only hurt yourself, I will only hurt you."

That's it! I need to do this! There is no other way! This is my last chance. My last card.

"Leave me! Leave me or I'll kill this child inside me!"

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