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∆ 10. REBOUND ∆

Taehyung's

It has been five days since we arrive here at their business trip. We are now on the beach, they have a business meeting here and a mini vacation, so after today they are free to do whatever they want.

It's a good thing I came here with them or else, I don't know what happened. Jin hyung and I share a room because I insisted, the first choice was for Namjoon and him to be roommates but I won't let that happen. Jin hyung is mine.

Jin hyung never spoke of his feelings after that night, maybe he does that so we won't be awkward with each other and I'm completely not okay with that.

I don't know why, but him suddenly not being too affectionate and him becoming distant really affects me. He won't eat with me, or if he would, he won't sit by my side, instead he will sit by Namjoon's side.

I really get irritated when he gives someone else other than me his attention. I've been like this before, I always get irritated even with Jungkook if he gets too close with my hyung. Because if I could, I would just keep him leashed beside me so everyone would know that I don't share what's mine.

I can't even understand myself why I'm like this to Jin Hyung he's just a friend. But all I know is he is mine. I will not let somebody else take him.

I looked to the opposite direction of the beach and I saw Jin hyung and Namjoon walking on my direction. They haven't seen me yet so I took the opportunity to take a look at the both of them. Jin hyung looks magnificent and Namjoon, well, he looks okay, but he looks cheap. I'm way better.

He whispered something to Jin Hyung and it made the other giggle and broke into laughter. His loud laugh is audible to my direction and I realized something. I didn't get to make him laugh like that. Or in the span of almost a year living with him, I never saw him gave me that kind of smile. But to Namjoon, he can easily give it away.

He is slowly replacing me, I can't accept that! I need to do something. I know I needed to act now but I'm too weak to stand up. Jin held Namjoon's hand and played with it. I'm sure they are just being silly, but my heart clenched at the sight. He can't do that! His hands should only hold mine.

They started playing around and running in circles chasing the other. I look like I am watching a scene from a movie, the pink colored skies and the calmness of the sea with those two couples who are oblivious to the world just enjoying their time together. I hate it. That should be me, not Namjoon.

He held Jin hyung's waist and pulled him so close to him. I can stand it anymore! That's too much.

I walked towards them and I grabbed Jin hyung and dragged him away from Namjoon.

"Taehyung! Wait Namjoon is with me!"

"No, you're going with me!"

I cut his words and we went to our shared room. I closed the door and I faced him, slamming him on the wall so he won't have the chance to run away from me.

"You drive me crazy, hyung. I don't know what should I do anymore." I intently looked at him. I held his chin and made him face me, tilting his head a little bit because he is looking downwards.

"Look at me, hyung. I don't want you to be close to Namjoon. I said that before. I'm the only one who should be allowed to touch you and hold you. I don't want anyone doing that to you except me."

His eyes held confusion, pain and a whole lot of different emotions. "Why? You don't love me right? You don't care if you will hurt me everytime you will mention Jungkook's name in front of me, or if you invalidate my feelings like I don't have some of it. You don't want me to be happy, right? You want me to be miserable? You won't set me free from you! I wanted to be at least once, be selfish. I don't love Namjoon yet but he doesn't hurt me he cares enough for me, maybe in the future I can love him and I will forget about you. Why won't you give me the freedom I deserve? Why do you keep on hurting me? All I did was love you, but I get bruised everytime. I feel so worthless and doesn't deserve to be loved because of you, Taehyung."

"No, hyung. I don't want to hurt you. All of those is unintentional. I don't want to see you in pain, but I also don't want you to love another man except me. I don't understand myself too, hyung. But please, stop thinking of loving Namjoon."

He hits my chest with his trembling hands while he cries. I hate seeing him cry. I don't want him to cry.

"Why are you like that, Taehyung?! Don't you know you are the root cause of this pain? You always make me cry. How much pain would you make me go through? Is it still not enough? Do you want to send me on the edge of killing my self literally? If that would make you happy then be my guest. I'll do it even right in front of you, because I can't take it anymore! I just wanted to die and end this so I can be free."

He pushed me hard and I stumbled, he rushed to the kitchen and I think I know what he is going to do, but I won't let him.

"Jin hyung! Fuck! Come here!"

I managed to pull him back to my arms and hugged him. I don't want to lose him. I can't lose him. I cupped his cheeks and wiped his tears away with my hands.

"I don't want to lose you hyung, and I've made up my mind. Make me forget about Jungkook. Make me love you."

I looked at his lips and something urged me to taste them, to officially make him mine, and I did. I claimed his lips.

I think I need to give this a chance maybe I can forget Jungkook and love Jin hyung. Who knows. I just hope I can replace Jungkookie fully, but for now I'll settle with Jin. Maybe he is the right one for me.