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∆ 22. PICTURES ∆

Taehyung's

"Taehyung! Come over here let's take a picture!"

Jin hyung is calling me! He took his phone a I smiled instantly, wrapping my arms around him.

"I love you, hyung!" I kissed his cheeks.

"I love you too!"

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"Jin hyung! Promise me we'll be together forever?"

I showed him my pinky, asking for confirmation of the promise that we are going to seal.

"Forever and Always."

We intertwined our pinkies and I sealed it with a kiss. Our first kiss. Oh, how heavenly does this feel.

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"Taehyungie! Happy First Anniversary!"

I can see the great view of the city from up here. We are on top of the highest hill in the city where you can see the whole town and enjoy the view.

"Happy Anniversary hyung!"

He smiled at me, "Let's take a photo and send to Jungkookie. I love your best friend too much!"

I will forever treasure this night. Our first year. The first year of many.

He is smiling at the camera but my eyes were glued to him.

"I love you, hyung."

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"Dada! Wake up!"

I was woken up from my dreams because of my daughter. Those dreams, I sighed, I wish it will all come true. I guess I miss Jin hyung so much that I reached the point where the supposed memories with Jungkook was replaced by his face.

How I wish I found out earlier that I'm in love with him, if I did, then he wouldn't have left me and we are probably happy by now.

"Dada, Papa will come here in an hour. Can you please prepare breakfast for me? I'm hungry."

I stood up and rubbed my eyes, "Of course princess. What do you want?"

"Pancakes!!!"

I stood up with my daughter beside me. I went straight to the kitchen and made her pancakes.

While making our breakfast, my mind wandered about Jin hyung. I wanted to make it up to him, but this distance and space between us is killing me. Mostly because I'm afraid, afraid that he might be with someone else and is happy.

He is not hard to love, he is pure and not to mention very good looking. But his personality tops off everything. He will make you secured and feel safe. He won't let you down and will take care of you in his own little ways.

Now, after six years, I realized that it's true, that you won't find the value of something not unless it's gone. I thought having thrill and fun and sex would be enough for me to go by, I look past what he gives and thought of it as plain and boring.

I did not know that what I thought of plain and boring will be the most important factor why I still stood up and carry on day by day. The excitement from the activities that gets my heart excited always pass and ran out, I outgrown them, but not the unconditional love he gave.

I never knew I needed that. I didn't know it mattered that much. I thought being happy about doing the things I want to do is enough. But clearly it isn't.

I was an ass for ignoring him multiple times when he needed me the most, and to fuck around when he silently grieved for his heart. I was too insensitive, I even blamed it to him that I didn't asked of him to love me. How I wish I can take it all back.

"Dada! Can you please pass me the syrup?"

I handed my daughter the syrup that she needs. I looked at her, if there's one thing that I don't regret in all of this, it's her. "Why are you staring at me, Dada? Do I have something on my face?"

"No, princess. I'm just thinking of how I love you."

"I love you too, Dada."

She continued to eat and we talked about random things until a horn was heard. It's Jungkook. I stood up and walked slowly towards the door, but before I can do that Jungkook is already inside. I had no choice but to welcome him.

"Heizey baby, go into the car. I will talk to your Dada!"

I looked at Jungkook, bewildered. "Why?"

"Dada! Give me my goodbye kiss?" Heize bid me goodbye and went outside.

"What is it Kook?"

"Taehyung it's been three years! Move on! Move on with me. I'm still waiting for you baby. I still love you. Don't reject me. I will make you happy just say anything you want me to do and I will give it to you."

Jungkook is slowly getting near me and every step he take, I took a step back. "No, Kook. I won't move on. I will wait for him! I love him! Stop forcing yourself to me!"

"Taehyung give us a shot! I'm the father of your daughter! She needs a whole family. Are you that selfish? Don't you want your daughter to be happy?"

"I'm not selfish, Kook. It's you. Do you want our daughter to grow up in a loveless household? I can love her the same way even if I'm waiting for Jin hyung. I don't want to lie to myself, I want him. Only him."

He got something from his pocket and smirked at me, he throw the envelope right at my face.

"Then wait until you die! See for yourself! That hyung that you are waiting for didn't even wait for you! He is already happy with someone else! You're wasting your time and effort! Be with me, instead! I kept waiting for you all these years! Accept me again!"

I didn't respond to him but instead opened the envelope he gave me. Inside there are photos of Jin hyung with a man that seemed to be familiar with me. I think I saw him somewhere. He looked happy and healthy.

My heart ached because of the longing I feel. After six years this was the closest thing I'll ever get to seeing him. I teared up, both with pain and longing. I wish I can hold him again, but how? He's already happy and has a family of his own. I lost him completely. There's no way I can win him back again.

I cried and cried. I look pathetic, but I don't care. I'm hurting and it's all my fault.

"Just love me again, Taehyung. Don't be stubborn and let go of Jin hyung. Move on and be with me."

I'm getting tired of Jungkook. I'm getting tired of everything.

"I promised that I will never love somebody else again and I tend to keep my promises. I don't care if I'll suffer until I die. My heart only belongs to my daughter and Jin hyung. I'm sorry Jungkook, but you have no space here."