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∆ 26. CATCHING UP ∆

Seokjin's

"Hyung? Jin hyung?"

A voice was heard and I almost fell off of my seat. I know that voice. I clearly know who is it. Fucking 6 years, he still have the same effect. I did not looked at him, I kept my eyes looking straight at the view in front of me, but my hand gripped tighter on the rope of the swing.

"Hyung, why are you here? How did you know this place?"

"How about you, Taehyung? Why are you here?" I managed to ask back my throat almost give away my nervousness and cracked. I had to hold myself together. I'm not a teenager anymore that feels butterflies and would run because he saw his crush. No, we're adults now, things are more complicated. How I wish everything was simple.

"I don't know, hyung. I just thought of this place. I think I've been here some years ago."

Oh, the couple! Maybe him and Jungkook were the couple that the old man is talking about. Some say that Jungkook looks like me when they see us the first few times, so it makes sense.

"If you happened to pass by an old man he will probably remember you and Jungkook going here. He told me that there was a couple that usually goes here, that's why he made this swing for the both of them. He even thought I was Kook."

I don't know why we're having this conversation. Maybe because after six years this is the only chance we had to talk to each other? I don't know.

I glanced at him only to see him looking at me intently. I'm lucky that I'm sitting here because at the intensity of his stare my knees are turning weak. After six years still same effect.

"Maybe you're right, hyung. Maybe me and Jungkook went here. But you know what? Every memory I have with him, my mind replaces it with you. I guess I missed you too much that I fantasize you to be him and wish that it would come true."

I don't understand what he is saying but I let him talk anyway.

"You said I should not look for you right? To let fate bring us together? Do you know what that I almost lost fate on finding you but here you are."

His eyes welled up and tears flow down his eyes. He wiped it away quickly and sniffed a little. I just stared back at him.

How can he do that? He can act as if he missed me so much when in fact, after two weeks of being away he married Jungkook. Probably now, he already has a child of his own.

Realizing that, I knew there is nothing to talk about between us. Everything will only be about our child. I can't hope for more. Just like before, we can never be something else.

"But I'm a little too late, right? You're married."

"Yes. I'm married." It's true, I'm married with Yoongi but unlike them, me and Yoongi don't love each other romantically. He is basically my best friend.

"I see." This time he avoided my gaze and looked at the view in front of us, "How's life, hyung? What happened to you the past six years?"

If I were to look at us now, we look like friends who did not see each other for years and is catching up, asking how have you been's and how's life cards. There is not a hint of a messy past, both of us neither wants to talk about it.

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Taehyung's

I teared up while talking with Jin hyung. I missed him too much and now that he is sitting in front of me gives me chills and it feels unbelievable.

He took his phone out and scrolled on it. "Married life is okay, " he started talking and I'm bracing myself for what he's about to say. Probably rubbing it to my face that he has a loving husband, a person much better than me. " ... Here hold my phone, just swipe through those photos."

He handed me his phone and of course I took it. I looked at the photo in the screen and if it is possible my heart already broke into a million pieces. It's their family picture. All of them looked happy.

I tried to swallow down bitter tears that is threatening to fall and focused on Jin hyung's child. I know that kid!

"Hyung, I assume he's your son?" I pointed out the kid in the photo. I think I hear Jin hyung held in his breath before speaking.

"Y-yes ... Yes he is. W-why?"

"No, nothing. I just met your son almost a year ago, I think. He was lost and he's looking for you and his father. I was the one he asked for help, and after a few moments, about an hour I think? Your husband saw us."

Funny how we are in that same particular place but we never met.

"Oh thank you, Taehyung. Thank you for taking care of my son that time. I don't know what I will do if I lost him." I can completely understand him on that one. If my princess would be lost I'm sure I'm going to lose it.

I keep scrolling through his photos and seeing how happy he is these past six years with his family makes me feel a lot of things. Of course he won't accept my love and gamble this beautiful family that he has just to settle back to me who is nothing and will not do him any good.

I sighed, I came across a video of his baby crying so badly. I can't help but smile at how adorable his son is. How I wish I was not an asshole before, maybe now, me and Jin hyung's child would've been like this.

Unconsciously, my tears fell down again at the thought of my unborn child.

"I'm sorry hyung." That's all I can say. I hope he gets what I meant.

"Do you know why Beomgyu cried in that video?"

Jin hyung changed the topic. He doesn't want to talk about it. I can understand that, and I can understand that he doesn't want to forgive me. "Beomgyu has been looking for his father."

Now, I feel really bad. I feel like a horrible person because I was not there to help him and our child, he could've been this happy if I treated him right. "He's been looking for his father all day, but you're not there so I can't give him what he wants."

Now I'm hearing things. That's not probably what he said. I'm just imagining everything, because deep inside I really wish I was the kid's father. "Where did your husband went? Is he away that time?"

"You're not my husband, but yeah you're not with us that time."

"Hyung, wait a minute. I think I'm hearing things. I'll just calm myself down." I breathe in and out trying to calm myself down. I don't want to mess this up, if we can't be a couple maybe let us just be good friends again and me panicking like this would creep the hell out of him.

"What do you mean, Taehyung? You're not hearing things! You're the father of my son!"

If it's possible to have an heart attack now, I probably would have. "What? Hyung, don't joke around like that. Our baby was already an angel."

"No, she had a twin and that's Beomgyu. Beomgyu survived, but his sister didn't. You're his father." Jin hyung stated.

"Really?" I slapped my face a couple of times, "... You're not joking, right? I'm not dreaming?"

Jin hyung shook his head. "You're not. But now I'm in a nightmare."

"Why?"

Jin hyung's strong and firm aura broke down and he cried. I went to his side and rubbed his back. "Hyung what's happening? What's the matter? Is it about our child?"

He looked up at me, his hand clutched mine, his tears won't stop falling and his breathing is uneven, "Help me, Taehyung. Help our son. I don't want to lose him. I can't lose him."