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∆ 31. THE DIFFERENCE IT MAKES ∆

Seokjin's

"Taehyungie"

I'm crying like a baby inside the car.

All this time I am the one who should be with him? I should be the one he loves not Jungkook! I'm the one!

I can't stop myself from crying. I've lost a decade to be with him only to find out that all along I should be the one who holds him and the one he should marry not Jeon Jungkook!

What should I do? Should I tell this to Taehyung? Should I confront Jungkook first? What should I do?

There are a lot of things that is bugging my head right now but I need to do some things first and calm down. Eve if I wanted to rush back to the hospital, Taehyung would still be probably asleep due to the operation he had undergone.

I went outside my car abd checked on the kid, he's nowhere to be found. I assume he's okay. I checked myself and when I saw that I'm okay I drove again. I went to my house, dropped by the laundry and finally went back to the hospital.

I needed to talk to someone and that someone is Yoongi.

"Jin, why is your eyes red? Did you cried? What happened to you?" Yoongi is so worried for me.

"Let's have a seat, Yoongi. I have a lot to tell you."

We sat on the waiting area that is not filled with people or even nurses.

"Yoongi, I remember everything." I started to tell him.

"What do you mean, everything? Everything as in everything? What did you remember to make you cry like that?"

"Yoongi, I'm Taehyung's boyfriend. I can clearly remember now. I'm in a relationship with him for more than two years. Jungkook is his best friend not the other way around ..."

I started telling him what I can remember detail by detail.

"The place where I met Taehyung the other day was our secret place. Only the two of us knows that place exist. We built memories there."

"Isn't that a good thing? You can tell that to Taehyung and you will be happy again."

I wiped the lone tear that escaped my eye. "No, that's not as easy as it seems. Don't you wonder why not even a trace of our memory together is wiped out? Not even one person tried to tell us what we are in each other's life? No one? Isn't that suspicious?

Also, we have social media accounts, we posted there every time we had the chance, but everything is wiped out."

Yoongi fully grasps what I'm saying and his eyes widened, "Jin, do you think that Jungkook has something to do with this? He's the best friend right? He should be the one to tell both of you."

I nodded my head, "Yes. I believe so."

"Then we need to start investigating and find out the truth!"

"No, Yoongi. Not now, Jungkook is not here. We need to think first. We need a plan. If we act carelessly, everything will be ruined. Let's wait until my son recovered. We'll move after that. I can't do those things while my son is not well."

I said to Yoongi. It's true, I wanted to do wait until my son gets better. But I also fear something.

"Yoongi, I'm afraid."

"Why?"

"Because, we both lost our memories and forgot who we are in each other's life. But isn't people always say that the mind forgets but the heart doesn't? I guess it's true, it happened to me. But why? Why did he loved Jungkook too much? Why does his heart never remembered me? Why did he do all those? Why didn't he loved me again?"

Yoongi hugged me and comforted me, patting my back, "Jin, don't cry. It's okay."

"It's not okay! I feel angry, I feel cheated on! O stayed loyal even after I lost my memories, staying true to my promise that I won't live anyone else other than him! But why can't he? He replaced me instantly!"

"Jin, will you let your past take over you? Will you let that be the reason why you won't fight? Taehyung might have done something wrong but it's in the past. He's done you a lot of bullshit when you don't remember a thing but yet you still love him after seven years. What difference does that memory make? Nothing! It's just a reminder that once you loved each other so bad. A lot of things happened after those years, and yet both of you are still here trying to make the ends meet. I know for a fact that he loves you and you're the same.

The only thing those memories can do for the both of you is to know who tried to ruin you. Don't count each other's mistake leave them in the past. Do you love him, hyung?"

Every word struck to my being, he's right.

"Do you love him?"

"Yes." I whispered.

"Then that's all you need to fight. Do all the things you can do for love, Jin. Fight a good fight don't always resort to crying. You're not weak."