WISHES OF THE HEART

CHAPTER NINE.

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One week later.

Hibba

I just came back from islamiyya,oh amSoo tired.
My joints are aching.

"Ummi in wuni" I greeted.

"Lafiya kin dawo"
I nodded my head in a way that says yes.

I started walking away when she called me back again.

"Hibba see me later we have to talk koh" I nodded again and went away.
After maghrib prayer I went to her room.

I saw her on her praying mat doing some tasbih.

I waited untill she was done.

She sat on her iron bed which made a creak sound signifying it's old.
She patted the space beside her urging me to come closer.

I sat beside her.
"Hibba what are u planning for ur future" I kept quiet not understanding what she meant.

" I mean u not getting younger anymore, u are already in ss2 u are now 17 years old, when I was ur age I had married your father for two years" I lowered down my head fiddling with my fingers feeling uncomfortable having this discussion.

"Hmmmn am talking to u"

"Ummi I want to finish secondary school" I stated smiling at my dream of becoming a model.

" So what do u want to study, naji zaba akeyi"

"I want to be a model ai ummi" she frowned her face looking confused.

" Keh what is a model Kuma from what I heard it's not a good thing, I want u to become a medical doctor" she said it with a lot of pride.

" Ummi I want to be a model it's been my dream since when I was a kid fa pls ummi"I whined like a little girl.

" Diyar Nan you will be a doctor in Sha Allah that's it stop thinking about being a model, u see this society we are in will not support I don't want people saying bad things about us, I know I've trained you well, don't pour sand in my eyes" I sighed feeling sad.

" Ok ummi" I managed to say.
After some minutes I stood up to leave.

"Sai da safe ni zan kwanta".

"Allah ya tashe mu" I said ameen. And went to my room.

I prayed Isha and sat on my bed thinking about my future, I really want to be a model, but ummi doesn't like it what should i do?
Am so confused right now,
I've been wanting to be a model since ever.

I first developed that interest when I saw a magazine with a model on it at school, from then I started researching on models, I check dictionaries and asked my teachers.

I learned that most model leave their bodies out, they flaunt their bodies and they go on diets, seriously food is life I can't do that.

I want to be a hijabi model I want to change people's opinions on models I want to show them that models are not that bad.

But I want to make my mother happy and proud.
But by Allah's grace my wish will not remain the wishes of the heart it will one day become reality.

Am so confused what should I do. Soon I slept off.

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Today is the last day of exam, alhamdulillah hopefully we'll have good results.