Siren ♡ Kim Taehyung/Reader FF ♡ Completed ♡

32.

"He told me that he loved me." Y/N rushed out as Kiko stepped through the door to her apartment later that evening.

Kiko froze, eyes widening. "Fuck, this calls for a drink. Good job I have some with me, nice to see you by the way."

Y/N was that wrapped up in her own little world with Taehyung that she totally forgot Kiko had only just returned home from Tokyo that morning, she sent her friend an apologetic smile.

"Sorry, that was rude of me. How was your trip? Family doing okay?"

"Oh you know the usual, asking why at my age I'm not settling down and taking care of my husband and children." Kiko was used to it, certain members of her family were extremely traditional and could never understand why Kiko was more focused on her career.

"I'm sorry Ki, that must've been frustrating."

"Meh, used to it."

They walked through to the kitchen, Y/N pulling out two glasses as Kiko opened the bottle.

"So, did you say it back?" Kiko finally asked, pouring a little Nigori in each glass.

Y/N gave a nod.

"I did yeah but it was said during sex, emotions are always heightened then right? I'm just....overwhelmed I guess. I'm not second guessing anything, I still very much want to be with him but everything just happened so quickly and I'm finding myself wondering if I do actually love him or is it more like lust at this stage? It felt right at the time, he said it and it felt natural to say it back but then this morning we didn't really acknowledge it happened."

Kiko chuckled as Y/N rushed everything out without even stopping to take a breath.

"Y/N relax okay, you're doing what you always do and over analysing. I can't tell you what you're feeling, maybe with how intense everything was during sex it was something you both just said or maybe it genuinely is how you feel. I know a lot has happened in the last few months and you'll definitely be feeling overwhelmed but stop worrying so much about everything and just enjoy it."

Y/N knew Kiko was right, she did have a tendency to worry far too much and should it really matter at this stage what her relationship with Taehyung was? He did say he cared for her, that he wanted to make it official so why worry about three words said during the throes of passion.

If it was love then eventually the two of them would say it again when the time was right, preferably when sex wasn't involved.

"So how was the sex?" Kiko smirked over the rim of her glass.

"He was really gentle, kept making sure I was okay." Y/N felt heat rush to the apples of her cheeks, just thinking about Taehyung and their night together sent her heart racing. "It was perfect, felt....right you know?"

"Sadly I don't." Kiko took a sip of her drink, seems like tonight was the night for opening up. "I've had plenty of sex, many failed relationships but never slept with anyone I truly cared about. I guess it's my own fault, for always putting my career first. I've pretty much accepted it now, maybe it's not for me."

"Don't say that, if someone like me can find love then you definitely can. You're still young Ki, this isn't something you should worry about."

"I've always believed that we all have a soulmate." Kiko smiles, index finger tracing the rim of her glass. "I found mine a long time ago but sadly they'll never feel for me the way I do for them, that's okay though and it's something I've come to accept now or at least trying to."

"Ki I'm so sorry, I didn't know you felt that way about someone." Y/N couldn't imagine how painful something like that could be, to feel so strongly for someone and them not return those feelings.

"It's not something I usually talk about."

"You'll find someone else Ki, you're amazing and there's going to be someone out there who can see that too."

Kiko smiled, finishing off her drink before pouring a second. "Enough about me and my pathetic love life, tomorrow you're finally getting the tattoo done right?"

Kiko was a stubborn person, if she wasn't ready to share her feelings on a subject then there was no forcing her. It made Y/N sad though, to know her friend had been suffering for so long with this and she wondered why Kiko was only telling her now.

"Yeah, tomorrow is the day." Y/N decided to allow the change of subject, when Kiko was ready to talk about it further then she would be there to listen.

"You nervous?"

Y/N shook her head. "I was nervous for so long but not anymore, it's crazy because I never thought this would happen.....that I would actually come to be proud of my scars and not hate them."

Kiko cocked a brow, eyes curious.

"I don't actually want to cover it anymore, those scars are proof I survived and when I'm with Tae he doesn't judge me for them. I still want the tattoo but somewhere different, I haven't even told Tae yet."

Kiko wasn't the type to get emotional but this was huge, months ago Y/N couldn't even look in a mirror without hating her reflection and now she was proud of her scars.

"I'm so fucking happy for you."

Y/N chuckled as Kiko raced around the kitchen island to pull her close.

"You should be proud Y/N, what you went through was awful but you pulled through. I don't know many people who could've done what you did, this is such a huge step in your recovery and Taehyung will be so fucking happy when you tell him."

"I hope he is, I hope it shows him how much he's helped me."

Kiko stepped closer, fingers cradling Y/N's face. 

"Give yourself some credit Y/N, you did this too. I know Taehyung helped but it was you that took the necessary steps, he would tell you the same."

"I know." Y/N swallowed, suddenly feeling nervous.

Something didn't feel right.

Why was Kiko looking at her like that.

"Do you want something to eat?" Y/N squeaked, wanting desperately to change the subject. "I don't really have much in so we could always order some....." Whatever she was about to say ended abruptly the moment Kiko kissed her.

((👀 Well, hope you guys enjoyed this update. Things are starting to get interesting right? If you enjoyed this chapter don't forget to vote 💜 next update will be Jagi followed by Can I Keep You. Were you guys expecting the kiss? What do you think will happen next? Are you surprised by Y/N's decision in regards to the tattoo and do you think she'll go through with it? What about her declaration of love for Tae? Do you think it was more lust of love, heat of the moment or genuine feelings? What will happen after the kiss? Ooooo so much to think about 🤣💜))