Ashton Irwin Imagines

Late Night Tears (Alternative Ending)

AN: When I wrote my first ever imagine, I made it end with a sweet ending. But....What if it didn't end that way? I present a redo of the first ever imagine posted. Hope it's good! (Changed the baby's name so they have some differences)

"Rian, please stop crying!" You said to your small baby boy in your arms. Rian just kept on screaming and crying and throwing his arms around acting as if you were trying to murder him. You looked at the clock on the wall and saw it was 11:20 pm.

You sighed and kept on bouncing your month old baby, thinking about how 10 months prior your husband Ashton had finally convinced you to try for a baby. You had been married 2 years before he finally got you to agree to it.

It wasn't that you hated the thought of having a kid, in fact, you loved kids. It was the fear of not being a good mom, not knowing what to do and failing at the most important job ever.

You only looked over your fear because the look in Ashton's eyes when he would ask was full of want for a child. All he wanted was a child of his own. Especially if it was with you.

Another scream broke through your thoughts and you looked down at the small baby that somehow had the strength to scream since around 8 when he was supposed to be asleep. 

"Rian.....please justsleep. Please baby please." Your eyes started getting blurry as you realized that your fear was becoming a reality. You couldn't even get your own child to stop crying.

You had tried everything. You started crying, barely rocking your son anymore. You slowly started going down until you were on your knees crying your eyes out, holding the screaming child in your arms. Not even trying to silence him anymore.

"I'm sorry Rian. I know I'm a terrible mother. I've failed and you aren't even a month old." You sat there crying and crying when you heard a door open and close.

"Babe?" Ashton questioned, walking into the house and getting worried from all of the crying noises. You turned and looked to see Ashton's face when he walked into the room and saw shock and concern flash across his features.

"Y/N what's wrong?!" He said running over and kneeling next to you. You just shook your head and went to hand him Rian, who was starting to quiet down after he saw Ashton. He took Rian andstarted shushing him while staring at you.

You sat there with tears still falling out of your eyes while you stared at the floor, not wanting to look him in the eyes from embarrassment.

"I'm going to put Rian down, when I get back I want you to talk to me.Ok?" You barely nodded before Ashton turned and took Rian to the nursery to put him down in his crib.

When you realized what Ashton had said you started crying harder because he got Rian to calm down and you couldn't. He didn't need you there since all you did was prolong the crying.

Hell you were a sobbing mess yourself.

"Nonono why are you crying harder?" Ashton mumbled as he ran over and grabbed your shoulders, pulling you into him.

"I'm ssssorry. You don't need me here. I don't even know why I agreed to have a kid. Rian hates me." You barely choked out.

Ashton grabbed your face and looked you in the eyes, "Y/N. He doesn't hate you. He was just being fussy. I do need you here. I couldn't do anything I do without you."You stared into Ashton's hazel eyes, wanting to believe him.

But you couldn't.

"I can't Ashton. I just can't." You stood up quickly, stepping back from him as he stared at you in shock.

"What does that mean Y/N. That you can't be married to me anymore?! That you can't be a mom to Rian?!"

You just shook your head rapidly while backing up. "I don't know Ashton. I don't know. I...I just need to think."

Ashton stood there with tears in his eyes as he watched you go towards the door. "You can't leave me Y/N! You can't leave your family. I LOVE YOU! RIAN LOVES YOU! YOU CAN'T LEAVE US!!"

He got louder and louder, more and more desperate for you to stay.

You grabbed the handle to the door and twisted it, already making up your mind.

"I have to go Ash. I'm so sorry." And with that you ran out of the house.

AN: If y'all still read these, you can comment ideas....or comment if you want me to continue this :P When I have free time I still love to write, I just don't have a lot of it and it's hard to come up with new ideas :(