Its been about 3 months since Matt and I hooked up Gilinsky and I decided not to talk anymore after I found out he smoked weed. He wouldn't really come to visit Jenna and I anymore. She started Pre K a few days ago.
Matt texted me a lot but I seemed to ignore him, sometimes we would hang out as friends Matt was really Far away at the moment he was on tour again.
I hated seeing him gone I know we were just friends but he's like a brother to me
Johnson texted me
Johnson: Hey we need to talk like right now Its about Gilinsky.
Maddie: but I'm busy taking care of Jenna
Johnson: Come with her just please
Maddie: Im going I'll be there in ten
I grabbed my keys and Jenna walked behind me sitting in her car seat with her buckle.
Starting my car driving to Jack house. I got out of my car helping Jenna out.
"Momma this is daddys house." I know princess but "this isn't about daddy"
"mommy I don't wanna see daddy"
"Your not Beautiful shh."
"MADDIE OVER HERE" Johnson called from the back yard
I put Jenna on my shoulders
"Hey Jack what happen?"
"Gilinsky has been over using the drugs I give him and he ended up in the hospital theres a high chance he can die."
"Wait no, I have to talk to him or else I'll never talk to him and never forgive myself I'll blame myself for his death"
"Its his fault and no one can see him unless your closer than his parents"
"Look I have to see him"
"Well if you have a plan to go see him then you go right ahead."
"Im going if its the last thing I do Jack" tears now running down my eyes
"Maddie go ahead. But what happen months ago wasnt Jack it was the high Jack he never cheated on you."
"Wait what?"
"Its too bad now"
"I just love everything about him and I feel so bad I treated him like this he will never forgive me after this."
I walked away holding Jennas hand
"Mommy don't cry remember what you told me all boys do is hurt you just remember that you always have me to love and no one else"
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Guys im off for my Christmas break so these will be on hold ☺️
