Finding Me In You

45 Beautiful

Kiran Lin

Its been days when I learned the guitar again and I was able to cope up with the gap I made.

Tinignan ko rin ang mga social media account ko and to my surprise, many messages popped out telling me to get well soon. I don't know if they knew what happened but since hindi naman ako nakapagsabi sa kanila, I guess they assumed that I got sick.

So I decided to make it up to them and let them know about the case I had. Napagisipan ko rin na ipagpatuloy ang pagp-post ng guitar covers.

I actually started posting on my twitter account just to let them know that I'm back and I'm still alive. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin dahil sa dami ng natanggap kong replies.

But I'm thankful dahil masaya sila sa pagbabalik ko. I thought they'd hate me because I didn't say a word and just disappeared. I even read a comment that says they watched my old videos when I wasn't posting new ones.

Nakakataba pala sa puso kapag maraming sumusuporta sayo. I didn't realize that until now.

"Kiran, treats." ani Iza na nasa kitchen.

I stopped looking at the band's acoustic guitar on the stand at sumunod.

Umupo ako sa tabi ni Yivie at kinuha ang Blueberry cheesecake pati na rin ang coffee.

While eating a small portion of the cheesecake, I suddenly felt shivers and saw them staring at me- or maybe kay Yivie.

Katulad ko ay nakikiramdam rin siya sa paligid.

Siniko ko si Yivie at napatingin naman siya. I never thought that I'd be able to do it but we talked with our eyes.

We both nodded when we made our decision and faced them.

Magsasalita na sana si Yivie nang pinagsalikop ko ang mga kamay namin at ipinakita iyon sa kanila.

"I'm courting her."

"We're dating."

Sabay naming sabi. Wait.

Did I hear it right?

"Y-yivie?" I faced her without even hiding the smile that shows the emotion that I couldn't contain. She looked back at me and nodded.

"I'm answering you with a yes." hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko at mahigpit ko siyang niyakap. We totally forgot about our surroundings until we heard someone's cough.

"We're not even surprised."

"I knew you'd be together."

"Ang halata mo Kiran pero congrats."

"Libre naman diyan."

Magkasunod na sabi nina Iza, Kyer, Mikaela at Dyen.

Napalingon ako sa huling nagsalita dahil sa sinabi niya. Puta, sinagot lang magpapalibre na agad?

Aba'y syempre.

I smiled and told them that I would. Animo'y nanalo ng loto ang mga kasamahan namin at hindi ko maiwasang tumawa dahil sa mga pinaggagawa nila.

I looked at Yivie and admired her laughing face while she's watching her friends do wierd actions.

"Beautiful." I unconsciously whispered ngunit narinig yata ni Yivie dahil mapahinto siya sa pagtawa at lumingon sa akin.

I felt my face turn red so I hugged her again and secretly smiled.

How can I contain this feeling?