independent • soonhoon (completed)

• two •

the baby was undoubtedly that one fucker that he did a month ago. the more jihoon thought the more it all made sense. he had crazy mood swings and he can recall throwing up in the morning a few times in the past two weeks. jihoon was lost, he didn't know what to do.

"should i tell jeonghan? no he'll turn all mom on me and i can tell the other idiots they'll make fun of me.. fuck.." jihoon sighed as he just pulled his knees to his chest.

he hadn't moved since he had seen the positive pregnancy test. jihoon could t help but hope that maybe it was inaccurate because he had taken it so late in the day or if what he had ate that day could have interfered.

jihoon let out a loud sigh and got up off the floor. he decided to make a doctor's appointment and get tested that way. he needed to know if this was really happening or not.

it wasn't too late in the day and he called a close by clinic and they had an opening in an hour so jihoon agreed to be there then. once he ended the call he let out another sigh. he couldn't believe this was happening.

"why me of all people? why with him?" jihoon whined out loud even though it was just him in his small apartment.

soonyoung was a senior in college getting ready to graduate in the spring while jihoon was a sophomore in college. the two ended up having sex at a party because they were extremely lustful and drunk.

"does he even remember?" jihoon asked himself and he sighed.

jihoon recalls the moment and can still feel soonyoung's touch. he didn't seem as drunk as jihoon, he didn't slur his words or hesitate soonyoung just devoured jihoon. and the worse part is jihoon allowed him. jihoon just rubbed his eyes and grabbed his car keys and wallet and headed down to the parking garage.

upon arriving at the clinic he was extremely nervous to enter. how often did they see a man enter alone to get a pregnancy test? nontheless jihoon entered and checked in at the front desk.

jihoon was called in rather quickly and they drew his blood and told him to wait as the results were being processed. after the nurses left a doctor entered the room and he seemed rather surprised.

"oh hello sir, im dr. seungcheol choi. nice to meet you," dr.choi chimed with a smile as he shook jihoon's hand.

"so according to my chart you're getting a pregnancy test done, correct?" he asked and jihoon nodded. jihoon hadn't felt this embarrassed in a while.

"it's okay jihoon i've dealt with male pregnancies in the past. it's not terribly rare but it is uncommon," dr.choj explained and jihoon felt slightly relieved.

"does the father know?" he asked and jihoon shook his head and dr.choi sighed.

"im sorry about that sir but you should tell him- ah! do you have the results ms.hirai?" dr.choi began to explain but was interrupted by a girl entering. she nodded and handed the clipboard to the doctor.

"well lee jihoon, you are definitely pregnant. how about we run an ultrasound- oh dear, ms.hirai can you go get some tissues please?" jihoon couldn't help the tears falling from his eyes. he was so screwed. dr.choi placed a hand on jihoon's shoulder.

"jihoon, you've got this. we're going to run an ultrasound then we will let you know how far along you are and if you would like to abort the baby we can discuss that as well," dr.choi consoled the crying boy and handed him a tissue as ms.hirai came in with them.

jihoon wiped his tears and complied with dr.choi's instructions. the baby was quite small and dr.choi smiled a bit as he looked at the screen.

"how long ago was the sex?" dr.choi asked and jihoon responded.

"a month ago," he said as he zoned out as he looked at the ceiling.

"when did you start showing symptoms?" the doctor asked another question and jihoon complied.

"two weeks ago," jihoon responded and dr.choi responded with a hum.

"you look roughly three weeks and we'll schedule you another appointment in a month," dr.choi said with a grin and jihoon nodded.

"um.. what if i want to abort the baby?" jihoon asked and dr.choi's smile faded.

"then we would give you a pill that would get rid of the baby, you're not that far along. if that is what you want i'll prescribe it," dr.choi explained and jihoon just stared at his stomach. he couldn't abort it.

"n-no! i'll keep it," jihoon said with quite a bit of haste and the doctor's smile appeared again.

"okay, if you ever need anything or you have any complications you call the office and they will direct you to me. male pregnancies are difficult and my team will help you as much as we can!" the man chimed with a smile and jihoon found his voice so comforting, he would be a good match with jeonghan.

"thank you,"

jihoon left and got back into his car. he sat in the parking lot and cried. he couldn't help it the tears just flowed out of his eyes like there was no stopping. jihoon didn't know what he was going to do. should i tell him? jihoon asked himself but he just shook his head.

i'll do this myself.

• author's notes •

ahh I know this one is sort of long but I'm just having fun! I hope you're all enjoying!

-lilly