Fog of Love

Part 14 You Care!

Pooja's POV

"Pooja! Pooja!" I heard him saying. I don't understand that now for what reason Shaheer has come!?
I am done crying and I'm done listening him! Don't he understand!?
I hate him and I don't care if he ruins his life or not. I don't care!!

"Pooja please suno na ek baar! Ek baar meri baat suno..I'm really sorry!"
He cried behind the door.

"Kuch sunne or kehne ko nahi rehgya hai Shaheer! Just go away!" I yelled.

"Please ek baar last time..give me another chance! I'm really sorry yaar!"

"Listen Mr Shaheer Sheikh!" I opened the door as I was literally angry and couldn't stop myself from yelling at him.
"You are gone case. Mai hi bewkuf thi ke sab chod kar yaha aayi...har ek din maine tumhare bare me fikar ki...roz ye socha ke kahi tum kuch galat kadam na utha lo...jab tumhare man aata hai tum paas aate ho..jab man aata hai ignore karte ho..kya ho tum? Mood swings ki dukaan!? Tumhare baare me sochkar apni self respect khona..or tumhare parents ke samne itna humiliate hone ke bad mai thak gayi hu...I'm done! Done with you!"
He was teary eyed as I screamed at him.

"I know maine tumhare sath acha nhi kia..mere inner turmoils or heart break me mai itna kho gya ke mai kisi or ke baare me soch hi ni raha tha.. I'm sorry..." I seriously can't stand his unimportant talks so I cut him in between.

"Kis bat ka inner turmoil or heart break..! Ha yaar hogya break up par dunia thodi khatam hui hai..tumhari to galti bhi nhi thi...to kis bat ka guilt..! Par ye sach haina tum us insaan ki madad kar hi nhi sakte jo apni madad khud nahi karna chahta."

"Tum kar sakti ho..tumne hi itne dino se mujhe hopes di hain..so yeah.. please forgive me! Mai tumhare bina kya karunga..?"

"Jo tum ab tak karte aa rahe the..rote raho...kyuki tumhara kuch nhi ho sakta! You did hurt me! You have hurted my feelings! I don't care about you and your life.. anymore...!" I was sobbing by now. And he tried to hold me but I jerked his hands away.

"Don't you dare touch me!" I moved back.

"I'm sorry Pooja!" He stepped forward.

"You are not!" I said with trembling assurance.

"I am!" His eyes held certainty proving my assurance false.

"I don't care!"

"You care! You do!"

"Shut up! And get out!" I tried to scream but it came out as a whisper as he was standing so close to me. He held my waist slowly and lovingly. I was shivering in his embrace as I didn't want it at the same time feeling secure. We both were crying looking straight in each other's eyes, not blinking away. There was a fight between our feelings.
But I just moved away realising our proximity!
He wiped his own tears and tried to say something when suddenly Siddharth came.

"Pooja! Shaheer!?" He exclaimed.

"Oh Siddharth!" Shaheer greeted while smiling faintly. While I wiped my tears away.

"Hello bro!" Siddharth said.

"Hey! Actually bye! Mai chalta hu..!"

"Aree ek minute to ruko..!"

"Nahi nahi abhi nahi bad me milte hain..ghar aana you know it's mu hometown!" Shaheer said to him.

"Oh wow! Surely I'll try jese hi humara song khatam hota hai!"

"Humara!?" Shaheer looked at me. Am I answerable to him? No!!

"Ha we are in this romance video song!" I said in a cold tone while smiling at Siddharth.

"Tum ready ho jao.. Pooja...shooting gonna start!" Siddharth informed me and I nodded.

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Shaheer's POV

I have hurt her so bad! I can see it in her eyes. She was crying all these hours, when I was gearing up all my courage to come to her. Though my head was dreading the repurcussions of saying a sorry to her and facing her wrath but my heart was saying something else. I wasn't able to stop myself. And I'm content that I came. At least I am able to see what destruction I have done in my life. I have crushed even the last hope of my life that is Pooja! I deserve every ounce of what she said to me.
I deserve her anger, her wrath and her yelling at me. But I can't bear she ignoring me. I don't know when she became so important but I seriously can't stand her absence. I would feel voids and emptiness in my life, if she would not talk to me.

Plus! I don't know why I felt so bad and side lined when Siddharth stressed on the word "Humara". I felt like an outsider. Well! I'm an outsider in her life. There's nothing mine. But her friendship with me is surely mine and I have to fight for it. I have to manofy her anyhow.
Whatever it takes!
On a personal note, I'm surprised with the changes within me, I was here to cry on my grief but now I'm all set to bring the Beautiful back in my life. So yeah The ironman inside me is back to fight for her.

Around 12 in the night, I sneaked out of my house quietly so that ammi and abbu don't wake up. I am heading to Pooja's place.
Wow! I have never done such a thing in my life but this is really an emergency.
Vese usne sahi kaha ke konsa guilt kesa pain..jab Ruchika break up ke bad apni life enjoy kar rhi hai to mai kyu nahi? Why should I die grieving? Maybe yes Shikha don't really deserve me. And maybe our relationship was just a relationship, it was bound to ruin. Because it was not love from her side. Why? Because she moved on so easily.

"Tu Shaheer hai, parvaaz hai kaam tera,
Tere samne aasman or bhi hain!" I remembered these words but this in voice of Pooja. I'm so much obliged to her for being there for me every time I really needed a shoulder. She's such a gem of a person that I can't describe.

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Pooja's POV

Finally todays schedule was over and it was 1 in the night when we finally reached our hotel. I was mentally physically and emotionally drained. I just want to sleep. A very deep slumber and how I wish I could never wake up!
Depressed? I am?
Yes! I'm drained. I can not take more of this man.

I unlocked my room and it was pitch black when I found something fishy. A sound? Someone is here in my room! Definitely!

"Kon hai? Kon hai?" I asked while shivering.
Thrill, life se jaane ka naam nhi le rha hai!
Suddenly to my surprise, I saw electric candles lighting up before my bed carving I AM SORRY on the floor.
I was shocked to see that. Then as I looked, I saw Shaheer on his knees with a rose on his hands, with guilty but determined eyes looking back at me.
"I am sorry Poo! I really am!"

"Kyu kar rahe ho ye drama..mai rahu ya na rahu..tumhari zindagi me. Tumhe farak nhi padna chaiye..! Please Shaheer don't test my patience!" I whinned as I was on my verge. I'm left with nothing inside me to vent out, at least for today.

"Ek zarre sa vajood hai mera..
Muje takht-toh taaj ki aas nahi..
Sab alfaaz likhe jo vo tere hain..
Mere seene me jazbaat nahi..
Gungunata tha mai aksar tere alfaazo ko..
Afsos magar ab..mere honthon par vo saaz nahi..!" He tried to assert my importance in his life with a certain seriousness on his face. And I was shocked to hear him.

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A/N : Since there were comments for regular updates, so here you go with a new chapter!
Enjoy guys!
And yeah tell me how do you want Shaheer to apologise in a more special way!?