ILLICIT | PJM

PROLOGUE

severely unedited read at your own risk please T-T 

TWO YEARS AGO

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"Yeonnie are you ready?" I heard Jin oppa's words as he entered my room. I quickly wiped my tears away and adjusted the big white gown which was literally mopping the floor.

"Yes I'm ready." I said and saw Jin, he was dressed in a tuxedo "you look handsome." I made sure that my eyes never met his, I didn't want him to see that I wasn't ready for getting married the moment I turned eighteen.

"Hey look at me." Jin oppa came up to me and rested his hands on my shoulders. I quietly buried my face in his chest and I couldn't get a hold of my emotions, I started crying the moment I felt his hands on my back.

"Hey if you're not happy with this then why don't you just run away?" he rested his head on my shoulder. Running away was never an opinion, I didn't have the guts to leave him alone in this brutal world created by our father. "To be honest I want you to leave, I don't want to see you get married to someone who is merely a successor of this whole illegal empire."

"What are you saying I thought it was you who would take over all of this and just shut this all for good." I freed myself from his grip and looked at him with my puffy eyes.

"Exactly they know that I won't continue this." he sighed "take this."

He handed me a paper envelope and opened it to see a passport and a ticket.

"What's this Jin oppa?" I exclaimed.

"A ticket to Seoul." he wiped his tears away.

"No, I won't leave you." I clutched his sleeve.

"You have to Yeonnie!!!" he screamed and I flinched "please just go. I can't see you here in Miami. I can't see you sad, go away. I'll manage everything." My own brother said that.

He wanted to be free of me. Was he tired or was it simply because he wanted me to go walk from this place?

could've been for my own safety but leaving the whole damn country was just too much-

I went to my closet and changed my clothes. I packed everything and took every polaroid of me, my mom and Jin.

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I was fidgeting with my fingers when the car abruptly stopped.

"We're here." Jin said.

"Can't you just come with me?" I asked him one last time and a lone tear left my eye.

"No, I have to cover up for you. Remember to change your name and sim card and make sure you don't reveal anything to anyone." he handed me one more paper envelope. I opened it to see dollar bills and quietly put it in my bag. Along with that was a blue passport. 

"I changed your name, your American nick name is now your official name." he heavily sighed. My brows pinched the instant my eyes scanned the name. 'Kim Ayla' 

"Will you call me?" I asked him

"I don't know. Don't get too close to anyone." he got out of the car and I did the same. I picked up my suitcase and started to walk away but then I went to him and stood in front of him. His eyes were puffy and his sleeves were rolled up to his elbow.

"I love you." I hugged him tightly.

"I love you too with no conditions applied." he smiled, tears streaming down from his eyes.

I am leaving. No leaving is the wrong term. I am running away. Running away from the lavish life I have. The fact that this lavish life is carved out of 'blood money'. The fact that my father is one of the biggest mob bosses of florida and the cherry on top is that he is not even american. The fact that I'm feeling guilty of only one thing. That is leaving my brother Seokjin behind. I am going to start fresh. I am no longer Kim Yeona.

From now on I am Kim Ayla.