You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Deleted Scenes: A Christmas Crüe}

《1994》

*Nikki*

Day off. Thank fucking god.

I can just chill at home with Mal and our son, who's growing up a lot already.

I laid back on the couch, Mal's back against my chest as she sat between my legs, Jasper in her arms.

Jasper coos up at us as we admired him.

"Happy three months, little man," I smiled down at him as he teethed on his fist.

"It all still feels like a dream... Is that bad??" Mal asked as she admired her son.

"If it is a dream, I never want to wake up," I smiled as I hugged Mal from behind, kissing her cheek.

She giggled aas the Jasper fidgeted for our attention.

"Looks like he wants all eyes on him," She laughed.

"With a cute mug like that, who wouldn't want to watch all day?" I chuckled, tickling his side and making him squeal and giggle.

We laughed as then Mal took a deep breath and looked down.

"Nikki....." Mal then spoke, looking up at me.

"Hm??" I mumbled, running my fingers through her soft hair.

"I've been thinking, and.... I know its always tough around this time of year, but.... I want us to have a real Christmas this year," she said. "For Jasper...."

I pursed my lips nervously as I looked down at her and Jazz.

"I know that's a dark time for us both, you especially, but..... I dont want it to be dark for our son... Especially for his first one...." she said softly.

I sighed softly, knowing she was right.

Christmas for me and Mal has been tainted and dark ever since I woke up with those adrenaline shots sticking out of my chest.

Since then, we don't even really put up a tree in the house or anything. Just buy gifts for our family and friends and then stay at home.

Now, thought, its different... We have a child, a son.... He shouldn't have to be dragged into a gloomy holiday, and honestly we've been in this kind of thing for too long now...

It's time for a change.

"You know what, babe, you're right... Jasper shouldn't have to go through his first Christmas in a mourning mood," I said. "Its his first Christmas, we gotta make it even more than special. "

She smiled. "I'm so glad you think that..."

"What do you have in mind?" I asked.

"Well, for starters, we can decorate," she said with a shrug. "Some tinsel, evergreens.... Oh, and a real tree this time, with real ornaments," She said.

I chuckled. "Hey, those were exclusive beer cans I got us that year back at the apartment, and everyone seemed to enjoy them just fine," I joked, making her laugh and softly smack my arm as I laughed, too.

"We can go shopping tomorrow, and hey, we can even make an appointment to have a family picture with Santa Claus," I suggested.

"I'll make the call tomorrow," She said.

"Great. This weekend, I can even go with the guys to the nearby forest and score us a real fir or something," I said.

"You sure about that, baby?" She asked. "We can just buy a real tree at the local nursery."