Seventeen

Chapter 37

Chapter 37 : "Changes."

As soon as we opened our eyes, the sun ray passed through the windowsill and greeted us with it's warmth, unexpectedly hindi umulan ngayong araw. Halos isang linggo rin kasing hindi nagpakita ang araw, but this day is different...

Today, the sun shines like it doesn't hide for days, it shines so bright that for a moment I forgotten about those days where the only thing that wakes me up in the morning is the harsh fall of raindrops to the pavement and have the petrichor as my breakfast every morning.

It's a beautiful day today..

The flowers blooms as soon as the sunlight touches it's petals, the leaves glimmers under the sunlight because of the raindrops that is evidence of yesterday's rainy day, the trees gets greener with a touch of slanted sunlight that is leaning to their stems, birds dancing to the sky, and the soothing sound of the wind as it hits the leaves.

It's indeed a beautiful day.

It's a beautiful day with a bunch of people lowering their heads; hands clenched, feeling empty, immobile faces, tears rolling down to their cheeks and people muffling sobs.

Sobrang ganda ng panahon ngayong araw na 'to pero hindi man lang namin magawang ngumiti. I can't even pull a fake smile..

"Mom? Heaven is a beautiful place right? Pero bakit po sila umiiyak? Dapat po happy sila kasi pupunta na siyang heaven.."

Nagawi ang tingin ko sa batang lalaki na biglang nagsalita. Nasa gilid ko lang siya kaya naman kitang-kita ko siya mula sa kinatatayuan ko. He's wearing a black tuxedo while holding his mom's hand. Nakatitig ito sa kung saan kaya naman sinundan ko ang direksyon ng tingin niya at dinala ako no'n sa kabaong na unti-unting binababa sa ilalim ng lupa.

"You're right baby.. heaven is a beautiful place." Dinig kong sagot ng ina ng batang lalaki.

"Pero bakit nga po sila umiiyak? If heaven is a beautiful and happy place they should be happy kasi po pupunta na siyang heaven. Sabi mo pa po wala ring pain doon."

I bit my lower lip and stifle a cry.

"It's painful to lose someone or something you love, anak. 'Yung nawala 'yung toy truck mo di ba you cried?"

I saw the little boy nodded his head. Hinaplos naman ng ina niya ang kaniyang mukha.

"That's because you know that you will never see that toy truck ever again.. same with your question. They're crying because they know for a fact, na hindi na nila makikita 'yung taong mahal nila.. kasi pupunta na siyang heaven."

"But pwede naman po silang mag-buy ng new. You buy me new truck po kaya happy na ulit ako or meet po sila ng new people para happy na rin sila." He innocently suggested.

His mom chuckled. "We can't replace someone, anak even if we want to, we just can't, because every person in our lives, every person that we meet; have their special place and the ones that we loved always happen to occupy the space in our hearts." She kissed her son's forehead before hugging him tight.

Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sa kanilang dalawa at tiningala ko ang ulo ko para pigilan ang luhang nagbabadyang bumagsak ano mang oras.

She's right. Hindi natin mapapalitan ang mga taong mahal natin sa buhay kahit gaano man natin sila kagustong kalimutan. Ang kailangan lang nating gawin ay ang tanggapin na kahit kailan hindi na sila babalik. Pero hindi ganon kadaling gawin 'yon.

Hindi madaling tanggapin na wala na siya.
Hindi ko pa kayang tanggapin... Hindi ngayon.. at sa tingin ko hindi ko kahit kailaman matatanggap ang katotohanang 'yon.