Not so perfect

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" Oke so you tell me that you are scared of horses" I said laughing, we stopped watching friends a long time ago and just started talking.

"Those things could kill me only because I walk behind them, I don't trust that" he said defending himself. " oh come on,I,m taking you horse riding in the vacation" I said with a smile "oh like hell you will" he said with a smile "I,m never sitting on those horrid things in my life" "we will see about that styles" I replied and we laughed. I was having an absolute blast, one of the best times if I,m honest. "Where are you scared of mrs brave" he asked and I smiled. " uhmm, I,m scared of myself
If I,m honest" I said smiling "and why is that?" He asked more Serieus. "You know, what will I be when I,m older and how will I effect others, you know my mom
Walked out on me and my family , so I,m scared I will do the same to my family if I,m lucky enough to have one. Or if I,m going to be a killer for some reason nobody knows and things like that. I change every now and then and I don't know what or who I will be in I don't know 5 to 10 years. Will I be happy and hard working or will I end up hurting everyone. You never know who you truly are until you are in a position where your challenged,So yeah I gues I,m scared of myself" I said calmly and he nodded "you're really someone else Elisabeth" he said and I smiled at him

"Oke back to happy talk, what do you want to eat? I still have some pizza leftovers that we can worm up" I asked and he nodded "that sounds perfect let's go upstairs"

We walked up stairs and I prepared food for him. He was deep in his toughs so I didn't want to bother him.

I have come to know for my self that Harry is funny, friendly, charming and had lot of secrets (as we all do of course) but there is more about him, is he scared? He tenses up if someone comes close to him and relaxes when he realises who it is. Its probably nothing but still.

It was around 1 am and Harry and I were really tired so we desired to go to bed.

"Oke so here is your toothbrush and tooth paste is in the guest bathroom, the guest room is next to mine so if there is anything don't be afraid to let me know oke?" He nodded

"Good night Elisabeth" he said with a low voice. "Goodnight Harry" I replied smiling

I brushed my teeth in the bathroom and went to bed to write in my diary.

𝐺𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑟𝑦,

𝐼𝑡𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑎 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑡𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡.

𝑆𝑜 𝑖 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑢𝑡𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑜𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑎 𝐴- 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑡𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑢𝑡𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑠
𝐻𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝐸𝑑𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑆𝑡𝑦𝑙𝑒𝑠
𝐻𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 "𝑝𝑜𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑟 𝑏𝑜𝑦" 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑦. 𝐻𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟.. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑡 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒, ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑎𝑙𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑢𝑛. 𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑎 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑎 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑑𝑎𝑦.

𝐷𝑎𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑗𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑏𝑡𝑤

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑑𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑦 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝑢𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑎𝑑

𝑆𝑜 𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑜𝑚𝑙𝑦, 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 ℎ𝑜𝑤. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖,𝑚 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑘𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠/ 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝐼𝑓 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑘𝑒. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙-

Then suddenly I heard someone yelling or screaming, what's impossible because no one can come in my house or close outside. Then I realised it was Harry. I walked to the hall and heard the screaming coming from his room. I knocked on the doorbijt opener it without hearing a replie,
There I saw him, sweating and yelling and crying? He was shaking and I knew I had to wake him.

"Harry" I said slowly walking up to him. "Harry it's me calm down" i tried but no luck
"ᴘʟᴇᴀs ᴅᴏɴᴛ, ɪ ʙᴇɢ ʏᴏᴜ" he rambled. Oké a plan. I grapes a glas of water and a towel and threw the content of the glas on this fase, he woke up not short after that, and he looked scared around him like a deer caught in by car lights.

"Calm down Harry" I slowly walked more to his side and he looked at me. "I,m just going to bring this to your face oke?" I showed the towel and he had nodded. So I slowly brought it to his face and took a seat next to him on the bed. He didn't have a shirt on so he was quickly dry.

"Are you oké?" I asked calmly. He nodded again. "I,m sorry.." he said guilty but I shook my head. "Its oke, You have Nothing to worry about Harry" I smiled "b-but I,m sorry, you shouldn't see me like this I better l-leave, you probably thing I,m crazy, and you're going to tell everyone" he said while sitting up but I pushed him down. " Harry it's oke, I don't think you are crazy and you are not going outside in the middle of the night, and who am I going to tell? Don't worry hunny ." We fell silent and he kept shaking so I forces my self to be a big girl and hugged him. He did the same while shaking. I put my hand in is hair to calm him down and he did.

"Can you stay here with me?" He asked and I nodded me " come on follow me , your bed is wet" I calmly said and he followed me to my room I grabbed my blanked and opened it for him. "Can I? " he asked while looking at me with puppy eyes. " of course get in. He got In and I did the same. I continued my previous actions until I heard he was asleep.

After that I went to sleep as well

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