Untold Secrets

Chapter 38

*****FLASHBACK*****

"Wouldn't it be better if humans had to face a situation in which they challenged God that he cannot do that to them like those in movies say, Even God can't do this? Excuse me, miss God can destroy you in a second!" stated Kinza aloud, and the whole class hooted while she patted her shoulder, smiling sheepishly. 

Kinza was a very smart student in her teenage days and had a crush on Ali since 9th grade. Hayat used to tease her at times with Ali's names but also warned Kinza against haram relationships.

Ali proposed to Kinza in 12th grade, but she didn't respond as she didn't want to ruin their friendship. She genuinely loved Ali and wanted to marry him. Hayat warned Kinza against Ali as he wasn't the same boy in high school; he had drastically changed since he got new friends, and they were all into smoking and drinking. Not that Hayat judged, but she felt as if he would ruin Kinza and her happiness. 

Kinza didn't practice hijab, neither was she regular in her prayers, but she also knew her limits. Kinza was bold and courageous. Her father had specific rules for her but never invaded her privacy. He knew about Kinza's friends, including Ali, but he never doubted his daughter. He always said, "I believe you beti, but you should always have that love for Allah and fear when you are doing something wrong. Always remember, You have to face Allah one day." 

Kinza kept this in mind, but Shaitaan (Satan) had his plans. Ali took Kinza to a restaurant and proposed to her again; she couldn't resist and said yes. All her friends were happy, except Hayat. A few months passed, and Kinza's grades started to fall; she spent most of her time with Ali. She was even drifting away from Hayat as she was madly in love with Ali, but still adored Hayat and knew she will always be her best friend. 

A few months of Kinza's relationship with Ali was like a fairytale, but Ali started to act weird. He forced Kinza for kisses even though he knew Kinza wasn't comfortable with it. Kinza never told Hayat about such incidents because she thought Hayat would scold her. Kinza started to avoid meeting Ali in private and focused on her studies, and she had to prepare for her entrance exam.

Kinza, Aaliya, and Ali got admission at the University of California. However, Kinza was everyone's favorite. She was not good at studies but extra active and gave the best advice. The teachers loved her, but her friend and boyfriend were jealous of her.

Hayat left for India, and Kinza started to spend time with Aaliya and Ali. However, Aaliya secretly liked Ali, but Kinza wasn't aware of it and. Aaliya always advised Kinza to break up with Ali.

"I want to start wearing a hijab too like you and Hayat," said Kinza.

"But you are in a relationship," mocked Aaliya.

"So what," interrogated Kinza.

"That makes you a hypocrite; on one side, you are doing haram things. Which is such a great sin, and on the other hand, you want to wear a hijab?" laughed Aaliya. 

Kinza got furious and said, "Just because I start wearing a hijab and stay in a haram relationship, does that make me a hypocrite? I didn't know God gave you the right to judge people and set rules. You never know Aaliya which sin of mine Allah might forget, and here you are mocking me. You and I both sin differently, hijabi's aren't meant to be perfect, but at least I want to try."

Even though Kinza had back answered, she was disturbed and demotivated. She didn't have anyone to motivate her except her father and Hayat. But Hayat wasn't in a position to help her, and she couldn't tell her father about this.

People need to focus more on other things rather than pouching on those who were in a relationship.

A few months passed, and Ali had decided to surprise Kinza as it had been two years to their relationship. But, Kinza didn't like where he took her; it was a pub with a lounge and loud music. Ali started to dance and pulled Kinza too. He touched her inappropriately, but what annoyed her when he began to move his hands towards her breast. Kinza moved away and sat in a corner. Ali gave her juice, and Kinza drank it because she didn't know he would mix drugs. Kinza's head started to spin, and Ali took her to the room even though she asked him to leave her home. He kept her on the bed and pulled her top up. Kinza gasped, and she requested Ali to stop, but instead, he kissed her stomach. She tried to push him away, but he was too strong for it. The last she remembered was Ali unbuttoning his jeans before she went unconscious with a tear dropping from her eyes. 

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Kinza woke up the next morning with a massive headache, unaware of her location. She went to grab her phone, and she realized her clothes weren't on. She tried to remember what happened last night, but she couldn't recollect anything. She moved away from a little and checked if there was something or maybe blood, but there was no sight of it. 

'Maybe it isn't what I think it is; Ya Allah forgive me.'

But her brain also knew that blood isn't proof, yet she wanted to believe it wasn't what her condition showed her and that her boyfriend didn't rape her. Kinza checked her phone and saw no calls from her dad, she thought of things to tell him, but she had to leave this place before that. She wore her clothes, grabbed her stuff, and left that place, hiding her face while filthy men were glancing towards her. She ran as fast as she could and sat in a taxi while calling Ali, but he kept on declining the call. 

She reached home with trembling legs and stopped in her tracks when her father called her and asked, "How was your stay over beti?" 

"Huh? Stay over?" interrogated Kinza while holding on to her head. 

"Bacchhi Aaliya had called me last night that you slept on her sofa while watching a movie and that you have a little stomach ache, so she requested me to allow you to stay over. How is it now?" asked Kinza's dad, unaware that it wasn't her stomach that hurt her, but something below it, and her heart was broken into pieces.

"Oh yeah, now I have a little headache; I am going upstairs," said Kinza casually. 

"Are you fine? Should we go to the doctor?" her father asked, concerned. 

"I am fine Dad, I love you," said Kinza and stormed into her bedroom, hiding her tears, not waiting for his response. 

Kinza wanted to see Ali, but if only she knew it would be the biggest mistake, she could ever make, leaving her shattered forever because she would witness something she never thought of her in her worst nightmares. 

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OMG!!! 🙊 Is this what you all had thought Kinza's past would be about

Hold on.... There's still a lot more to go 😜

The reason I've involved Haram relationship is because I know people who judge other's because they're in a relationship. Please know that you need to keep your nose  away from them and you never know when that person changes. Stop judging people, live and let live❤️💙

Also there are other sins too stop chasing boyfriend and girlfriends. Try to explain in a positive manner. I've seen many people write that men who commit before marriage aren't serious about you and just want to destroy you that's not true! There are men who are loyal even with the girlfriends and there are men who even cheat on their wives. Stop living in a fairy land! Pray that your marriage is beautiful but it isn't necessary that your marriage is going to work.

I do not promote haram relationships but I believe we should see what we are doing and explain why it is wrong. People just want to label it 'haram hai' taunt and judge them rather than seeing there are failed marriages too but they will expect a woman to stay in that marriage just for the sake of saying.

Hope you all understand what I'm saying 💙