ℝ𝕦𝕟𝕒𝕨𝕒𝕪 // 𝕃. 𝕃𝕒𝕨𝕝𝕚𝕖𝕥 𝕩 ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣

Impulse || 2

"I'm going to miss you, you know." L finally mumbles, his voice wavering only slightly at the end of his sentence. You feel your tears building again before hugging him tightly, to which he returns, putting his head into your shoulder and not daring to look up.

"Will you be back..?" You ask, and he remains silent and unmoving.

"You're not saying anything. Please tell me."

"...I don't know if I'll be coming back here anytime soon...Not for a long time. I'm so sorry (y/n), but I don't have a choice." He answers, and you couldn't help but cry as he held you softly. Who knew that today, just like any other you would spend together, was the last time you may ever see him.

It made you furious.

"I didn't tell you because I care about you...And it scared me." He mumbles, and you take a shaky deep breath, stepping away as your feelings of sadness quickly get replaced with a cold anger. Wiping your tears, you look up at him before jamming your pockets in your coat.

"Because you care? You certainly have a very funny way of showing it then." You angrily state, turning around before you feel your hand being grabbed.

"I don't want to leave you (y/n)." He finally admits. "You know that."

his normally stoic and monotone way of speaking had fallen into a mumble, and you soften slightly as you squeeze his hand, looking down at the matching bracelets.

"So after tonight...I won't ever see you again?"

"Probably not." He answers honestly, not daring to meet your gaze.

"There has to be something we can do. Right? There has to be..."

"Realistically there isn't. Unless we ran away together or something." He says, in a slight joking manor...But then you both fell silent.

"I...Have family across the country." You say without even thinking, frankly in disbelief that the words were coming out of your mouth. But before long, you found yourselves talking about it. At first in a joking, almost non-serious way as you reluctantly walked back, but as the evening set in, the conversation turned toward the question of how rather than what if.

It's not like it would be that hard on your family...Hell, they rarely ever noticed when you were gone for days on end. Not like they would notice you left all together.

"Anyway...Its getting late...I wouldn't want you getting caught for being gone too long. We don't have a lot of time, but I think I'm gunna head home and get my stuff together. If you decide you want to come along, even if it's just for a little while...Meet me at the train station tomorrow at 5am. That's when the first one leaves, so....If you're serious..." You trail off as you see how the stars were well out, and he remains silent while you feel a lump in your throat forming. "But...If you do end up leaving tomorrow...I wouldn't blame you...But please..."

You had to take a deep breath.

"Please don't forget me." You almost whisper, before pulling him close and pressing your lips to his cheek for only a second.

"I...I'll see you when I see you then...Goodbye L." You mumble, before you turn and start walking - parting ways for the last time.

On the walk home, you had decided to go whether he came with you or not. After all, why not? Why not say screw it to everything and fly solo for a little while at the very least, hopefully ending your journey at your family's place across the country...Even though you've only met them once, years ago. But they send you a birthday card every year. They were the only family members who did, so at least they cared to some degree.