Interdicted Passion: The Nerd's Prodigy (AGS #1)

KABANATA 30:

Tired

"A-Anong pong ginagawa niyo dito?" I asked him. Not minding if I looked like a mess.

He rushed to me and held my arms to pull me up. "What happened?" He asked me. Hindi nakatakas sa aking paningin ang matalim niyang tingin kay mamangs.

"Is it t-true?" I asked him almost begging him to say no. "Hindi naman po totoo 'di ba? Y-You're not..." I swallowed the lump in my throat. "My f-father, right?" I stuttered.

Lalo lang akong nanlumo nang tumango siya. "It's true... anak." I can't believe I would meet my father this way. Akala ko. Akala ko magiging masaya ako, pero bakit ang hirap?

Anak

The word I longed to hear from my father pero bakit ganito? Bakit ang sakit?

My tears welled up. I can't give him up! I can't! I just can't!

"N-No no no no no!" Sigaw ko habang marahas na iniiling ang ulo ko. Parang pinapaniwala ko nalang ang sarili ko na hindi 'to totoo. "You can't be. I-I can't. N-No hindi pwede!" I shook my head continuously.

Natigil lamang ito nang niyakap niya ako. My father hugged me. For the first time. I dreamt for this for a very long time but not this way.

He buried my face on his chest and he brushed my hair with his fingers just like how Lin does. Upon realizing how similar they are, my tears fell more. He whispered words to calm me down but I can't seem to take all the information right now. Ang nasa isip ko lang ngayon ay ang 'paano na kami?'

I was ready to fight for him. I was ready to be in battle, may it be with him or not. I am ready to fight for us because I know he is worth every fight. But what can I do? Kung pareho nang batas ng Diyos at tao ang linalabag ko.

"Hindi pwede. I-I can't live without him. I can't, please." I sobbed while saying those words while my father hushed me and filled my head with sweet words as if it could compensate with the lost years.

"What took you so long?!" I tried hard to punch his arm, but with my strength right now? I think it'll just turn out as a soft touch. "S-Sana... Sana noon ka pa dumating! Sana... s-sana noon ko pa alam! Para hindi ga-nito. I can't! Please tell me these are l-lies!" I continued sobbing while punching his arm.

It's not entirely his fault but right now. I need to blame someone. Pakiramdam ko kasi 'pag wala akong nasisi mababaliw ako kaka-isip kung bakit, paano, at ano? Lahat yata ng tanong ay maitatanong ko sa aking sarili. He continue brushing my hair while whispering things to hush me.

Kumalas ako at tumayo. I ran to our room and locked it. I fished my phone out. For seconds I stared at Lincoln's name on my contacts.

But I chose to open my messenger and chat friends. I need someone to take all my rants.

Secret:
Hey

Rei Margarette:
R u okay, See?

Savanah:
See, what happened?

Secret:
Wala. I'm fine.

Savanah:
Really?

Rei Margarette:
For reals?
Tell me na!

My tears welled up nang halos sabay pa silang magreply. They know, something's wrong. They always dare to doubt my emotions.

Secret:
Okay, I'm not. It's painful.

I thought they won't take me seriously. Dahil dumaan ang ilang minuto na walang reply, tanging seen lang. I was about to put it back when a notification came.