Is this love?

Dream

Tae POV
The whole night Jungkook was silent. He didn't talk to me much near the Tokyo tower and went straight to bed after coming back. I just thought he was tired and eventually fell asleep too.

But he continued to avoid me the next day. He kept listening to music or talking to the others. I was getting concerned.

"Kook did I do something?" I asked.

"Huh? No no why would you say that?" He said as he snapped out of his thoughts.

"Well you have been avoiding me for a while. If it's something I did just tell me dude."

"Oh no I'm just tired I don't feel too well." He said turning away.

I hesitantly started talking to Jimin and let Jungkook listen to his music.

Today we were visiting Kyoto to see Buddhist temples and some students were wearing kimonos including our whole group except Yoongi who got up late as usual.

As we quietly walked around the temples I felt very calm and peaceful. I never thought I would actually enjoy this but I did. It's almost as if the temples gave off positive energy. Wow I sound like a yoga instructor.

But Jungkook didn't seem to get much better. He looked kinda pale and tired. I kept checking up on him but he said he was just tired.

I was worried because today we were going to have a dj night. With loud music and people dancing everywhere. I hope he doesn't pass out or anything.

After coming back and having dinner everyone changed into party outfits and Rose insisted on doing all our make up but we didn't complain except Jungkook. He barely got ready and was lying down all the time.

Once it was time to leave everyone was looking really hot and Hobi looked like he would kiss yoongi in front of everyone and yoongi was smiling at Hobi and almost blushing for once.

"Guys are we the hot and popular group?" Jimin asked.

"More like hot but losers." Rose said.

"Not me. I'm popular." Yoongi said walking out as Hobi dragged him. Rose and Jisoo followed and Jimin, Jungkook and I were left in the room.

"Umm guys. I don't think I'll come. I don't feel really good. My head aches and I feel kinda feverish." Jungkook said now completely in bed under the covers.

"What?? Not on the dj night!" Jimin said.

"Hey it's okay. Jimin you go ahead I'll stay back. I'm not in the mood to party anyway." I said walking to my bag.

"No. You were really looking forward to this. You should go. You even got ready." Jungkook protested.

"You want me to go party when you feel like crap? I don't feel like partying anyway. Now open your mouth." I said putting a thermometer in his mouth.

"Okay well if you really want to then stay back. We'll call you when we are taking pics. I'm gonna go now. Call me if you need anything." Jimin said before leaving.

I went to get advil and came back to see that Jungkook had fever.

"Damn you are not going anywhere." I said giving him advil and some water as I took my shoes off and crawled onto the bed beside him.

"So you wanna watch something?" I asked taking my laptop out of my bag.

"You bought your laptop??" He said surprised.

"Isn't it a good thing? Now we can watch jujutsu kaisen." I said opening my laptop and edging close to him.

Jungkook POV

He edged closer to me and I smelt his cologne. I started to feel anxious but I pushed my feelings aside and started watching jujutsu kaisen. As the 3rd episode was playing I noticed that Tae had completely fallen asleep.

I closed the laptop and looked at his face admiring his features. His little mole on the nose. His plump lips and jawline. I placed my hand on his face and his skin was soft. I could see his chest rising and falling rhythmically.

I kept wishing it wasn't him but I can't deny it anymore. I had a crush on him. But what does this make me? I'm attracted to girls and he is the only guy I've liked till now.

20 min of research on the internet later I realized I was demisexual.

I pushed all my thoughts away for the hundredth time that day and settled in to sleep.

I slowly made my way towards Tae and cuddled him. He cuddled me back in his sleep. My heart was thumping but eventually I fell asleep smelling his cologne.

I woke up to see that Tae was awake and was sitting up in bed going through his phone.

"Oh you are awake. How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Much better." I said knowing I was sick only because I couldn't sleep the whole night because I was panicking.

I felt kinda guilty knowing that Tae was really looking forward to today. The fact that he stayed back and took care of me wasn't helping me lose feelings.

"I'm really sorry you had to stay back for my sake." I said not looking at him.

"Oh come on. Don't say that now. You want me to be twerking when you are feeling like crap?"

I chuckled.

Tae's phone rang before I could talk.

"Hello? ...Oh okay... I don't know wait I'll ask him." He turned to me. "Do you think you can come to take pictures?" He asked.

"Yeah I feel much better let's go." I said.

"Yeah we are coming Chim." Tae said before ending the call.

I really hope this crush goes away. I sighed walking out with him.

Once we all took pictures everyone went back to their rooms as they were exhausted from all the dancing. But Tae and I stayed up for a while watching anime and the more I pushed my feelings away the more stronger they seemed to become.

Tae POV

I smiled looking at the cherry blossoms. I felt euphoric as I looked at Jungkook. He smiled back at me and pulled me in for a hug. We stood like that for a while savouring the moment. He pulled away and looked into my eyes. We slowly inched closer and I closed my eyes as I felt his lips on mine. We pulled back and smiled looking at the moon.

"Tae." He said calmly.

"What is it Kook?" I asked.

"Wake up!" He said as I felt like I was being shaken.

I suddenly woke up with a start to see Jungkook giggling. I backed away from him as I blushed remembering the kiss. I soon realised it was a dream and calmed down. Then I remembered that usually what you dreamt was what you wanted in real life. I panicked as I thought that I wanted to kiss my best friend. But then I remembered the dream in which a donkey was riding on my back and the moon was shrek and I relaxed.

It's just a random weird dream I thought waking up to get ready for the day.

Yeah this chapter is kinda boring but in a few chapters it will get much better don't worry.