Chaotic Marriage (CEO Series #1)

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Midterms week came. It was hard. I didn't do well on my exams, not because the questions were hard, but because I couldn't focus while studying.

"I will fail." I voiced out.

"No one will fail, Bea." Levi said.

"Hindi ako nakapag aral nang maayos." sambit ko at yumuko.

"Hindi ka pa nakapag aral nang maayos sa itsurang yan? You looked like you studied all night. Para ka ngang zombie sa araw araw." komento ni Zoe.

I cried on the last day of our exam. I really fucked up. I couldn't focus. Alam ko yung mga sagot, pero nakakalimutan ko. Hindi ko matandaan. Zoe and Levi comforted me. Laking pasasalamat ko na nandito sila para sa akin kahit alam kong sobrang nahirapan din sila sa exam.

And really? Ako mukha ng zombie? Siyempre paano naman ako makakatulog sa sitwasyon ko?

Hayes really know how to hurt me. I don't know what's gotten into him. I thought the last time this happened, we made it clear to each other. I just want him to respect me as a human, that's all I am asking. But what he's doing is worst than what I've expected.

Him bringing and fucking unfamiliar girls in our unit was painful for me. I thought he'd stop with that. I thought he was contented. But I was wrong, maybe I assumed that he listened to me. Him bringing Dahlia in our own home is a different story. It's literally killing me. He's going beyond the limit.

For my whole midterms week, she's been in our unit three nights straight. There was this one time I got home, I saw them making out. Me being myself, I ignored them and cried in my room. In a span of three nights, I didn't hear unnecessary sounds from Hayes' room unlike the last time he was with his fuck buddies.

What's making me unfocused was the thought of her being here. The thought of them being in one room. He's really letting her roam around here like I am some kind of a joke living with them. Like I am not existing. Like I am not a person needed to be respected.

Hindi maiwasan na magka salubong kami ni Dahlia pero para lang kaming hangin sa isa't isa na hindi nagpapansinan. Isa na siguro iyon sa ipinagpapa salamat ko. As long as she won't pick a fight with me, I think I could still handle this. Tatagal pa siguro ako.

Tatagal nga ba talaga ako? Paano kung babalik nanaman siya?

Hindi natuloy ang dapat na pag-alis namin kasama ang pamilya nila Hayes. Iyon ay yung tungkol sa sinabi sa akin ni Scarlett. Dahil daw sobrang busy sa kompanya at may kaunting problema na kailangang ayusin. Medyo nakahinga ako nang maluwag ng malaman ko iyon. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung paano makitungo sakanila at mag sinungaling sa harap nila.

Ayokong magsabi. Hahayaan ko nalang na sila mismo ang makaalam o si Hayes ang magsabi na malabo pa mangyari. Bakit naman niya sasabihin ang mga kamalian na ginagawa niya diba?

Liam's been texting me several apologies. I never replied once but I read every single text. The last text I have received from him was this..

'Can we meet? I want to personally apologize.'

That was it. I didn't think twice and replied yes. Para na rin tumigil na siya kakatext sa akin at sabihin sakanya na hindi naman ako galit. Wala na sa akin ang nangyari dahil mas malala pa ang ginawa sa akin ni Hayes. Pumayag din ako sa kadahilanan na ayokong manatili sa bahay. Gusto ko ng may taong makakausap at makakaintindi sa akin sa sitwasyong ito. At si Liam lang ang naisip ko. Siya lang ang nakakaalam. Hindi naman kasi alam ito nila Zoe at Levi.

Wala pa sa oras na napag-usapan ay nandito na ako sa cafe kung saan ko kikitain si Liam. Ganito ko kaayaw na manatili sa bahay. Baka kasi bigla nanaman sumulpot si Dahlia at doon matulog. Hindi ko kayang makihalubilo sakanya sa iisang lugar.