Guns and Roses

X L V I I I

Jia's POV.

"Oh my goodness--- Lee Taeyong Jesus Christ! what are you doing there??" I shouted as I held my chest. I was surprised when I opened my door and he's already there standing with his hand lifted a bit, probably about to knock but got stopped because I opened. He flinched as well.

"u-uh I was about to knock" he said scratching his nape. He's already wearing his pajamas and a plain white shirt. "where are you going anyway?" he asked.

"I was just gonna go and get some water..." I answered as I exited and closed the door behind me. He gave way to me. I look at him in confusion, what is he knocking for??

I look at him waiting for him to talk. But he didn't. He looked suspicious I don't know why... he can't look at me either. "yah, Lee Taeyong? what's the matter?" I asked stepping towards him but instead he held either sides of my shoulder and gently spun me in a one quick thud.

"nothing, go get your water" he said along with a hard sigh. Despite of my extreme confusion I did as he told and went downstairs to drink water. After that I headed back upstairs almost immediately and saw him leaning on his door frame with his arms crossed across his chest. He seems like in deep thought. Perhaps, he wants to say something to me? I thought he's just going to say goodnight.

"yah, Lee Taeyong you're making me nervous" I said when I got in front of him. He looked at me and I don't know why but my heart started throbbing once again. His effects on me are really amazing. His face alone can build a whole darn zoo inside my stomach.

"uh...I can't sleep" he uttered. I can't help but smile at how cute he looked just now. His insanely captivating eyes is as it again...

"so what?" I asked, making it sound a little less sarcastic.

"I just wanted to ask you if... uh you could sleep in my room tonight? if you don't want it's fi---"

"ofcourse I will" I chuckled. He looked extremely shy, he's freaking adorable. Damn my heart. I entered his room myself. "you're such a kid Lee Taeyong"

"tsh. stop calling me with my whole name please" he mumbled. I threw myself in his bed.

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"did you not catch a headache today?" he asked. I shook my head. He was away a while ago, I heard he's up for some business. I was here roaming around the mansion looking for something I don't know. Like what I've said to Jungwoo weeks ago, I won't change my mind in recovering my lost memories.

He smiled then reached for my head and started caressing it affectionately.
We are laying facing eachother with a pillow in between us. "Taeyong, are you... sad?" I asked staring straight into his eyes. His brows narrowed.

"hmm? why would I?" he carefully asked. "I'm not sad" he assured. I lifted my hand and held his face. He closed his eyes and leaned on my touch and it broke my heart. He's missing me even if I'm just right here. He's missing the old me, indeed.

"liar." I said. He opened his eyes and looked straight at me.

"Jia--" I smiled, which cut him off.

"your mouth may lie to me several times, but not your eyes. They're so honest that I could clearly tell what you're feeling right now" I said. He remained silently listening to me. Giving me so much attention as he always do.

"I guess you could clearly tell how much I love you then" he battled. I'm being emotional everytime he say that 3 words. I badly want to say it back to him... but no. Not with this fvcked up memory. Taeyong deserves so much better than this. I am making him sad. He did nothing but offer his love to me but here I am... just purely making him sad.