Greenflames

"Not Alone"

~Lloyds POV~
I felt sparks fly when I kissed Kai. I pulled away and looked back down at his leg and tried to speak but couldnt get anything out.

I just turned and walked out the door....I didnt want to but didnt have anything to do. I ended up going back up on the roof of the bridge and going to the little latch that had a note book a green folder and a wooden acoustic guitar. I never told anyone about it and only did it when no one was at the bounty or sleeping.

 I pulled out the notebook and started to write down stuff and went in the fonder and got out the lined paper and filled it in.

 ~Kai's POV~
I quickly pulled on a pair of gray sweat pants and a plain red t-shirt. I went to the deck because he ran to the only door used to get to the deck. I went out and heard strumming...it sounded like a guitar.

I turned around and was facing the brige.......it was coming from up there. I went to the latter on the side or the wall and climed up it. I got up there and saw Lloyd stumming on a gutiar. I lisened for a minute.

Kai:"Did you write that?"

His head shot up immeadietly and looked at me a little shy.

Lloyd:"Um.....Ya, is it good?"

Kai:"It is really good. Can I hear the whole song?"

Lloyd:"Ya."

He moved the gutiar into place and started to strum and then I didnt expect him to sing to it. Then I realized what the song was about.

Slowly fading away, you're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?
Looking for a distant light, someone who can save a life
You're living in fear that no one will hear your cry
Can you save me now?

I am with you, I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you, I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not, you're not alone

The song was about me. I listened in amazement.

 Your heart is full of broken dreams, just a fading memory
And everything's gone but the pain carries on
Lost in the rain again, when will it ever end?
The arms of relief seem so out of reach
But I, but I am here

I am with you, I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you, I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not, you're not alone

And I will be your hope when you feel like it's over
And I will pick you up when your whole world shatters
And when you're finally in my arms
Look up and see, love has a face

I am with you, I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you, I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not, you're not alone

And I will be your hope, you're not alone
And I will pick you up
And I will be your hope
And I will be your hope

Slowly fading away, you're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?

There was a long pause after and I had no words to describe that song and my new liking for it.

Lloyd:"Kai?"

Kai:"Ya."

Lloyd:"How dose the song make you feel?"

Kai:"Like I have someone there for me. Not Alone."

Lloyd:"Ok."

Lloyd went and scribbled on the top of notebook paper something then ripped it out and handed it to me. I took the paper and read the top, it said

Not Alone-in loving honor/memory of Kai Smith

I smiled then moved next to him and kissed him again, and almost out of instinct he straddled my lap and wrapped his arms around my neck and I put the papers down and put my hands on his hips and he lightly rocked his hips back and forth on top of me.

He pulled away and got off of me and put everything away.

Lloyd:"Not here Kai. Not now. Ok?"

I had no words I just nodded and he flipped off the roof and I heard a door close. As so as I did I fell to my back and let out a huge sigh.

I smiled to myself when I replayed everything in my head, the song that he wrote for me, the kiss that still had fireworks, what he....um....did. I forgot the reason for my cutting and the feeling of sadness I forget.

Now I was happy.