Chapter 36

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(Sorry I'm late)

Brooklynn's POV

I didn't say anything, I didn't want to. Just because I forgive her doesn't mean I still...love her. I mean yeah I still had a bit of feelings that I'm trying to get over. "Please say something." Billie whispered.

I didn't let go of the hug, only because I want her to know that I'm not mad at her. "I- bil I don't know what to say." I said quietly. She pulled away from the hug and stared at me with teary eyes.

"S-say you love me back, say you believe me." She sniffled as a tear ran down her cheek. "Billie it's really not that easy to say that." I said feeling a little guilty. I never wanna make billie cry, I hate seeing her cry.

"Billie please don't cry, I-I can't just take you back you have to understand that." More tears streamed down her cheeks. "I-I'm not asking for you to take me back I'm a-asking for you to say it back." She sniffled.

"Say you still love me." she said quietly. I sighed, I looked at billie "I...love you as a friend billie. I don't wanna lie about something I know isn't true." I said truthfully. She looked down and played with her rings.

"I'm so fucking stupid." She mumbled. "Hey don't say that you're not. I'm glad you told me the truth." I smiled reassuringly. She gave me a small smile. I hugged her and she did the same. 

"I'm sorry if I made things awkward." She mumbled. "Bil you're fine." She laughed, "I've been told." I chuckled, "Shut up, you know that's not what I meant." She pulled away from the hug and looked into my eyes.

"So you don't think I'm fine?" She asked with a smirk. "Billie shut the fuck up." I laughed. "Wanna go home now?" She asked. I nodded and she grabbed my hand and pulled me to the car. 

"Slow down I still have a broken ankle." I mumbled. "Sorry." She mumbled and walked a bit slower. We reached the car and I got in and buckled my seat belt. "Can we watch a scary movie when we get home?" She asks.

"Bil you know I don't like scary movies." I said, "Yeah I know, that's why I wanna watch it." She smirked. "You're so annoying." I said. 

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By the time we made it home it was 8:45 pm, so billie decided to wait until 10:00 pm to watch the scary movie. This girl is trying to give me an heart attack. I was currently downstairs staring at a plate of burritos.

For some reason eating some more food didn't sit right with me. I recently just started back eating and I already have ate to much. I didn't know I was crying until billie hugged me saying it was ok.

Even when she didn't know what was wrong. "What's wrong mama." She whispered softly into my ear. "I-I feel like I'm eating to much and I-." She cut me. "Shut up, your not eating to much. if you're hungry then you should eat." She said.

"but what about m-." She cut me off again, "You're not going to get fat brooke, and you're not fat. So if you feel hungry then eat." She smiled at me. I wiped my tears and looked at the burritos.

I smiled at billie and began to eat.

Billie's POV

I was going to eat my last burrito with brooklynn, but my mom called my name. "Hold on I'll be back." She nodded and continued to eat. I walked over to my mom, "Yes mom." I said softly. 

"I saw how you calmed down brooklynn and I see how you look at her" She said. My face went bright red, "She uh she was just sad and I was helping that's all." I said shyly.

"Billie if you have to tell me something tell me, I would never judge you." She smiled. "I uh I'm b-bisexual, and uh me and brooke dated but then I fucked everything up and now we're just friends and I like her again but she doesn't feel the same way anymore." I said sadly.

"Why didn't you tell us before?" She asked. "I was just scared to come out to you guys, and when I brung Que around that's when things in our relationship started to go downhill, and when we went on tour I kind of broke up with her." I mumbled the last part.

"Is that why she was gone for 4 months?" She asked. I nodded and began to play with my rings. "Well billie you've always found a way to make things right so do that, and I want you to know me and your dad supports you a hundred percent." She said.

"D-dad knows?" I said nervously. "Of course we always knew especially when you covered your room in naked anime girls." She shrugged. I blushed out of embarrassment. "Go do what's right billie, oh and don't stay up late you have a meeting tomorrow." She said as she walked off.

I walked back over to brooke and she was done with her burritos. I quickly ate mine and grabbed her hand and we walked upstairs.

"Billie it's only 9:23." She said. "We're not watching the scary movie yet." I said. She nodded and sat on my bed. "I actually wanna talk about something." I said.

"Ok." She said. "Have you still been...cutting?" I ask. "W-what no." She says quickly. A little to quickly. "Well then let me see." I said. "What no." She said. I grabbed her hand and rolled up her sleeve which is actually my sleeve because it's my shirt.

I didn't see anything but old scars. I looked at her and she was subconsciously playing with her rings. I stared at her and I know this isn't probably the best idea but it worked last time. I quickly leaned in and pressed my lips against hers.

I squeezed her thigh and she pushed me away. "Stop kissing me." She mumbled. "It's on your thighs." I said sadly. "I-It's not." She said defensively. "Then let me see." I said. "n-no." She said. 

I pushed her back on the bed and climbed on top of her straddling her waist. "Get off me." She said as her eyes started to water. This might seem so wrong to anyone who would walk in right now.

I unbuttoned her pants and began to pull them down. "No no stop." She cried out. I pulled them to her knees and climbed back on top of her. I held her hands down. "Stop doing that I'm not going to hurt you." I said.

She still tried to get me off her. "No no don't look get off of me." She cried. I turned my head so I can see her thighs and they were full of cuts, she managed to push me off and I fell back on the bed. 

She sat up and put her face in her hands as she silently cried. I got up and hugged her. "Shh I'm not mad at you, and I think I know why you did it, I just want you to talk to me." I said softly. 

"I'm s-sorry." She said. "No no don't be." I said, "it's ok to go through things mama but you gotta talk to someone, ok?" She looked at me and wiped her tears, "Ok." It went silent for a while. "I still feel like I'm bipolar." She mumbled.

"I said this before and I'll say it again, all girls have their mood swings." I shrugged. "Can I get some shorts." I nodded and went to her room to get some shorts. "Here you go." She smiled and took her pants off all the way and put her shorts on.

"Billie your staring."

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A/n- Sorry for mistakes, stay safe love you.!

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