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🍉Quiet🍉

27th September 2013

I heard a constant noise. I woke up. The rain pelted against the only window in our bedroom.

It was cold. I pulled the blanket back over my shoulders. Even when I wore a pajama I was cold. I was often cold. Thin, short or young people got always cold faster. So also with me.

Why was that like that? A thin body does not produce as much energy as a strong body does. Freezing is a very subjective sensation and people of the same stature can have very different feelings of warmth and cold. But one thing is certain: a thin person cools down faster than a fat person. That's just the way it is.

Today I was alone at the dorm. The others had a schedule for that morning. Mine wouldn't start until 4pm. I didn't have a school either. So I slept as long as I wanted to.

For me it meant sleeping in until 8am. So now I still had 6 hours left.

I stood up lazyly and walked into the kitchen. I felt kinda hungry right now. So I opened the fridge. I saw a small brown box. On the box was my name and a small piece of paper on top.

I took the box and put it on the kitchen counter.

𝙂𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙋𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙨𝙨,
𝙄 𝙝𝙤𝙥𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙡𝙚𝙥𝙩 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡. 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙠𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩. 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙪𝙣𝙜𝙧𝙮 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙤. 𝙎𝙚𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧.
~ 𝙅𝙞𝙣 :)

Woahh how lovley. I was so grateful for that. I was so thankful for them take so good care of me. I was really lucky to have them.

I warmed up the food and put it on the table in the living room. Then I went to the shelf and took out our shared laptop.

I wanted to work on a new song. I tapped the table 8 times before I started working on my new music. Because if I didn't, the song would be a failure.

I always did it that way. I know it made absolutely no sense, but I had this urge to knock 8 times before starting anything or to wash my hands 8 times a day. If I wouldn't do that, there would happen a great misfortune.

I finished eating and working and turned on the television. It showed a report about bread. There was a bakery in Busanjin-gu, in Busan.

First they said something about a bread roll. The roll is a small, usually round or oblong individual loaf of bread served as a meal accompaniment. Rolls can be served and eaten whole or are also commonly used to make sandwiches.

I had never eaten bread before. However, I wasn't really interested in tasting bread either. A lot of people seemed to like it, but I felt nothing when I saw this piece of wheat. No excitement. Nothing.

That didn't mean I didn't eat products which includes wheat. I had once eaten pizza before. I had also eaten cookies. These also contain wheat.

??: Hey, how was the food?

I turned around. Jin was standing there.

Me: I-it was good. Thank you.

I didn't even know why I was stuttering. I felt caught. But with what? I hadn't done anything wrong.

Jin: Are you okay?

I nodded. He probably just asked because of my stuttering.

Jin: I just came here to get something. I'm going right back.

I nodded.

Through his behavior I could see that something was bothering him. And I knew what.

He was also stressed out. Like all others. But it was different for each of us. Jin was one of the quiet members. But he worked hard. When he became a trainee, he had to start from zero. He had no experience with singing, dancing or even rapping. That's why he always practiced for a long time and hard.

So did the others. The only difference is that nobody noticed it quickly with him.

Jin: Okay I'm going. See you later.

I nodded and waved to him.

* Later in Bighit *

𝕋𝔸𝔼ℍ𝕐𝕌ℕ𝔾 ℙ𝕆𝕍:

Jimin, Jungkook and Hoseok were going to prepare for 'graduate'. A song they would perform in a little.

While we were producing a couple of tracks, I looked at Yuyu. She looked so fine. And she seemed to be more happy when she was alone. She was like Yoongi hyung. Pale, a rapper, quiet and an introvert.

I was an extrovert. I love to talk to others. The only time I used to be alone was when my dad grounded me.

Once I planned to go out with a friend since we wrote a difficult exam. We wanted to reward ourselves for studying hard. But my plans got canceled. There I was.... Really bored. I wanted a company back then.

I mean, sure watching TV and playing with myself or my siblings would have been nice too. But it wasn't the same as going out to eat, play and more. I needed social interactions.

I don't think that Yoongi or Yuyu would be happy about socialsing. I think that's why Yoongi likes to be around Yuyu. He likes her quiet and at the same time sweet personality.

You can see it. Sometimes when he works at the dorm he sits next to her. When we go somewhere he is next to her. When our manager drives us somewhere he sits next to her.

Sometimes he sleeps and some of us would annoy him or tease him a bit. Because he sleeps everywhere. I don't even know how.... But Yuyu wouldn't bother him at all. He really enjoys being with her.

She is a great listener and it seems like she knows a lot. Because of how great, wise and amazing her words are that she tells us when we ask her about her opinion. Like while talking about our problems.

She was quiet, but she was amazing.