✨L I F E G O E S O N✨

💭Drugs💭

8th June 2015

We came home again yesterday. The flight was very tiring. Right now I was just lying on the sofa watching TV. The others had schedule again. I had to get well quickly. I was banned from all activities for now.

5-12 weeks were planned for a broken bone to heal. However, I was given strong medication so that I could dance again in 4 weeks at the latest and be able to exert myself completely. Since we were working on 'Run'. It's wasn't healthy but there was no other way.

In 4 weeks we would shoot the music video. By then I should be healthy and able to dance perfectly.

However, I couldn't move at all. I was under the influence of strong medication. These were actually for healthy adults. I was sick, weak and a 14 year old girl. I was severely underweight and was severely weakened by the medication. But I had to get well quickly.

On July 10th and 12th we had our next concerts in Australia. I couldn't move at all. I even needed help washing myself. That was the worst. It was always so uncomfortable and embarrassing. The ones who helped me were Jin and Hoseok in turns. This morning it was Hoseok.

He is someone who is often the first to wake up. Yesterday, however, Jin had helped me wash. He was trying to do it in a way that wouldn't embarrass me or make me uncomfortable. I was thankful that I was helped so much.

The problem was that I couldn't even sit by myself. Why? Due to the influence of the drugs or in other words strong medication. If I wasn't an idol I wouldn't be treated like this and my treatment would be slower and more normal. But I was an idol and we didn't have much time. Our schedule was always full. And I was stupidly sick for more than 2 weeks.

Jimin suddenly appeared. He smiled at me and sat next to me on the couch.

Suddenly my phone rang. I had a lot of trouble but I managed to push the button. Yoongi put it near me this morning so I could always reach it in case of an emergency.

I didn't know who had called me, but I recognized it quickly.

Mom: Yuyu!?

Her voice sounded extremely worried. I assume she had seen the news. I was in the news for my blatant injuries.

Me: Yes?

Mom: Oh my god. How are you? What happened to you? Darling, how did you get so hurt?

She was worried. I wanted to answer her. But the influence of the drugs made it difficult for me.

Me: I-

Jimin picked up my phone and nodded at me.

Jimin: Hello? Mrs Lee? I'm Park Jimin. One of her members.

He chatted with my mother and explained my current situation. I was thankful for that. Then he turned it back onto speaker.

Mom: Yuyu darling. I hope you get well soon. Let me know if something happens. You are so strong, I'm so proud of you. Please be careful. I love you darling.

I suddenly felt very emotional. I missed her I wish she would take care of me right now. But unfortunately that was not possible.

I nodded. Mouthing at 'I love you back'. Jimin told her about that then he hang up on her.

I lay there I could not move. It might sound absurd, but in the long time it was exhausting just lying around. I couldn't work in any way. I couldn't even think straight. I was full of drugs.

Jimin: I came here because you need to eat now.

I shook my head. I didn't want to. I wasn't hungry at all.

Jimin: Yes. You need to. Come on, I will help you.

He sat me up and started feeding me soup. I didn't do much. But it felt like I was being bottled. Jimin noticed that I wasn't feeling well. I finished and he put the empty bowl on the table. Then he turned back to me and hugged me.

Me: I'm just a burden to you guys.

Jimin: Stop it. You are talking nonsense.

We stayed like that for a few minutes. Then he pulled away.

Jimin: Get some sleep. I'll go back. I have some schedule. Call us if you need something.

I nodded weakly as he brought me into a lying position, feeling sleepy.

*Time Skip* *In the Company*

𝕐𝕆𝕆ℕ𝔾𝕀 ℙ𝕆𝕍:

Jimin just walked into the room. The meeting with Bang Pdnim had already started 5 minutes ago.

Jimin: I'm sorry for the delay.

He said and sat down with us. Pdnim just nodded.

Pdnim: How is Yuyu?

Jimin: She's alright for now.

Pdnim nodded. He understood. And he was sorry that there was no other option but to overload Yuyu with medicine. He told us so openly.

We had a good relationship with Pdnim. Of course we had to consider that he was our boss. But we had a very good relationship with each other.

At the end of the meeting I decided to ask how Yuyu would go on.

Pdnim: Well you guys already have a tight schedule. Yuyu will do all these things you do in these 8 weeks in 2,5 weeks.

Tae: When should Yuyu sleep? That's not possible.

Pdnim: I don't like doing that either. But there is no other way. You have to concentrate for the concert, the music videos and the choreographies. You will also shoot your first Run Bts episode. Yuyu has to do it in 2 weeks.

I wondered how Yuyu was supposed to do that. It was nearly impossible. But we couldn't do anything about it at the moment.

However, it wasn't easy for us either. We had to learn everything without Yuyu but schedule her. Also, we took care of Yuyu in between. But it was nothing compared to what Yuyu had to go through.